I said what I said...

Beat Jerkeez: A THANK YOU TO OUR SUPPORTERS!

2009-03-05T10:01:00.000-08:00

WE WON!! We won the Far East Movement "Girls on the Dance Floor" Video Submission Contest: Keep an ear out for Beat Jerkeez in the song (one of the prizes hahah) For more information: Forum Contest Details (There's even a link to the other submissions--youtube)

And here it is one more time!

A LITTLE OVER 2 YEARS?!

2009-02-26T01:38:00.000-08:00

Since I last posted on this thing! WOW!!!! hahaha... I think here and then I will comeback to it. Thank you, Julian. Your blogs are always so inspirational.

I DO have another blog. More private--that no one but one knows the link to because I know the link to hers. It's how we communicate our boredom :/ (but a little more seriously since we don't get to see each other all the time, rarely talk online or on the phone. In person or in blog is always better for us.) Eventually I'll leak out the link... but that's only if you're lucky.

FOR THIS POST:

How or why do rumors get started? I'm not going to lie. I'm a little bit of a chismosa myself. It's how I was raised and what I was around all the time back home--in my own home. But lately, my family and I seem to be the talk of the town: my family when it comes to other family, but that's because we're mourning and don't know how to show it better; me and most recently (I found out this evening) that I'm having a baby apparently??? I'm pretty sure I'd know if a baby were to pop outta me any time soon right?!

I know I try to get into other people's business. That's no lie. But I feel like it's with people I directly talk to: the latest Jerico stories with my little Jerks circle, the latest dance drama within the community (not that I know everyone, but team to team chismis), the latest happenings in my friends' lives if they wish to share with me, the latest on the people I talk to on a regular basis, the latest on the people I'm close to but maybe haven't seen for a while--just so we have things to catch up on ("HEY! I HEARD..." kinda deal). But am I just trying to justify my chismosa factor? Is this a sign of what to give up for Lent? Have I been sticking my nose in other people's business too much? Do I need to not keep the latest update?

I'm going back and forth telling myself that I only really try to keep up with my regular peeps, and when I hear something about someone else in the circle I try to ask them about it or get the story straight... ESPECIALLY when it's a big story. But again... am I just trying to convince myself that I'm not a gossip?

hmmm.. food for thought before bed. This whole "Czareine's having a baby" thing is really bothering me. I hope I get sleep. I didn't get much last night. And won't get much tomorrow night. *SIGH* Hopefully, I can get to the source. I'm not going to lie. I might let mini-Hulk out. :/ Let's hope that doesn't happen. I haven't had to kick some ass (besides my sister... hehe I love you) in a long time--whether with my fists or with my words... we'll just have to find out won't we. I'm a girl on the edge. This was a bad week to find this out.

Check out the Xanga for updates :D

2006-12-31T13:09:00.000-08:00

Here's the Link...ENJOY!

Happy Happy Joy Joy

2006-11-21T17:46:00.000-08:00

I need my laptop back. I get to reunite with it this weekend when I go home for Thanksgiving break.

I'm actually VERY VERY excited to go home this weekend. I miss home more than anything. I need to see Lolo. Seeing him at Induction Ball wasn't enough. I wanna see my girls for more than a couple hours. GAAAH!!! I want Auntie Son to take me SHOPPING! GAAH EVEN MORE!

I can't wait to go home. :D I just can't wait. I wish I had a car so I could go home more often. Seriously...

I hope I will... maybe Christmas?!??!? hoh man. I pray. I pray...

I'm a pooped out little monster.

2006-10-08T11:06:00.000-07:00

I think I'm taking on too much. well not really. I'm sure I'm not taking on too much. But I am getting more tired, more easily. I know it's because I've been doing something every hour, every minute of the day. When I do get those little spits of rest, I take it. Ayah. I wish myself good luck this quarter.

Two of my Fave other blogsites... just cuz I wanna post 'em

2006-10-05T18:19:00.000-07:00

New Music Now (as of today)

AND!

Post Secret (because Drew the Bestest intro'd me to it)

that is all..

the end.

The Baby Hamsters are SO BIG NOW!!!

2006-08-30T18:11:00.000-07:00

SO!!! I have to update about my little grandbaby hamsters. I LOOOOOVE THEM!!!!

When I posted before, they looked like little alien babies. Someone even commented on Steppie's LJ that they look like little devil children. BUT! They are not. They have hair and everything now!!! Here are a few pictures/videos that I took these past few days.

*** Their eyes are open! ***

Now they eat the regular hamster food. They eat ALOT!

Here's a little video of they first time I discovered them with open eyes.

***One Big Happy Family***
Now that they're big enough to be held, I put them all in the same house". The don't just let you pick 'em up, so I used a paper towel roll to catch 'em.

Three were eating, one was sleeping.

Booger and Dip 'N Dots reunited. It was quite cute.

One of them is a little Booger. He or she (not sure yet) was in the vanity for a good 5 minutes.

The Family!

Here's another video that I made of them all together. It was quite chaotic. Booger didn't know what to do about these "little invaders" in his house. And when he tried to sniff some of them, they slapped him and fought back. Poor Booger just ran away. :/

MY HAMSTER IS A DADDY!!! :D

2006-08-18T20:12:00.000-07:00

SOOOO!!!! Booger the Boy Hamster and Dip'n'Dots the Girl Hamster HAD BABIES!!!!

When we realized that Booger was a boy, we were like, "Oh shit! They're going to have a million babies." But for a while it never happened--I honestly started to think that Booger was gay or something. But it turned out obviously not to be the case.

Last night in the early morning, Friday, August, 18, 2006 around 1am, Dip'N'Dots had Booger's pups. THEY'RE SO CUTE!!!! :D Here are pictures that I stole from Steppie's LJ.

Here is Dip'N'Dots and her puppies. Yeah, they're still naked. They'll grow fur in a couples days.

Here's a bit of a closer look. There're for if you didn't notice. I LOVE THEM!

Here are the proud parents. That's Booger in the corner on his side.

-Steppie and I are the proudest grandma's :D

A Summer Sruvey

2006-07-25T14:44:00.000-07:00

Since Summer started:

1. Have you had more than 2 different boyfriends/girlfriends? No.

2. Have you had your birthday? Yes. And my niece, Denise Kate was born that morning, too!

3. Been to church? Yes

4. Cried? I think so, but maybe not.

5. Did someone close to you pass away? NO! Thank goodness.

6. Stayed up all night? Yes

7. Drank starbucks? No, but I've drunk coffe bean.

8. Went shopping? Hell yes!...Do groceries count? haha

9. Went camping? NO! But Drew and I are plan

10. Been to the beach? Sadly, no. I can't get too dark until after Atching Janelle's wedding.

11. Bought something for over $200? The fuck! I'm not made outta money! I haven't spent money like that in a long ass time.

12. Met someone new? Yes! I'm a tour guide. I love meeting new peopole.

13. Been out of state? Sadly again, no. But I'm working on Vegas with fellow C-Reps.

14. Gone Snowboarding? In the summer? No.

15. Slept in someone elses bed? hahah Yes, there was my sister's and my apartment's living room bed/couch.

*16. is missing*

17. Snuck out of your own house? I don't have to--I live on my own.

*18 is missing*

19. Lied? Probably.

20.Got a car? No.......DAMNIT!

21. Gone over your cell phone bill? No. I barely use it with people outside of my network. I'm in the IN-Network, and most people I know in my family--they're all in.

*22. is missing*

23. Drove somewhere? Yes.

24. Done something you regret? I don't think so.

25. Last person you hugged? Uhm... Bubbis.

26. Last person that texted you? Atching Janelle

27. Last time you took a bath? Yesterday. I've been showering at night because it's so hot. If I shower in the morning, by the time I get out, I start sweating again.

My Dawddah Deserves One, Too :D

2006-07-10T23:45:00.000-07:00

Ode To Dawddah

Here is an ode to my Dawddah!

For there is not awddah that is hawddah! (than her :D)

She is my favorite kid.

She is the bestest in the west.

And because of this i flip my eye lid.

You wanna mess with us, be our guest.

For there is no other than this dynamic pair.

So don't piss her out!

Because I'll pull you by the hair

Until you get hair drought!

We met when I burped in her face.

That was a delight!

We were in the same place (the tables);

We're best friends now... YA DAMN RIGHT!

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That was her ode because her tribute was long deserved. There was actually supposed to be a tribute of some sort a LONG time ago... but shit hit the fan. And finally Dawddah's was made :D

I LOVE YOU FOR EVER AND EVER DAWDDAH!

Thank you, Ms. Laura B,

2006-06-30T12:12:00.000-07:00

for this survey:

A CELL PHONE SURVEY:

1. What is your current ringtone? The main one is Ring 1, but I have customized some for some people.

2. What is your current wallpaper? It's a picture of the the Oscar Mayer Weiner Mobile that pulled up next to Drew and I while we were going to the Grove. It was awesome.

3. Do you own a picture phone? Yes, I do.

4. If so, what was the last picture you took? Usually, my phone takes its own pictures of the inside of my pocket or bag. But the last one that I took was a picture of me my sister's face while I pinched her lips together. She looks sad.

5. Go to your text message inbox and type what the 10th message from the top says: "When did it start? Is it good" from my sister, about the BET Music Awards.

6. How many contacts do you have on your phone? 302, but I have to delete some old numbers and uncalled ones.

7. Go to your last missed call, who was it? Bubby :)

9. What service do you have? Verizon

10. At this very moment, how many bars do you have for your service? 6--the max.

11. Who's on your speed dial number 5? Dawddah Offspring

12. Do you have a voicemail? Yes, I do. And if I don't have your number in my phone book, I won't answer it. So leave a message. Or text me.

13. How many contacts that start with the letter D do you have: Daddy, Dani (MRSC), Darlene (VC), Darlen (ring sister), David (Kuya), DaVinci (my old work), Dawddah Offspring, Deb, DJ home, Devin, Diana (MCIA), Diana (Diddy), DJ (Kuya), DJ cell, Dominoes, Don, Dr. Octoman, Dr. Lagman, Dr. Tan, Drew, and Dry Lab makes 21.

14. Who do you call the most? Tie betwee Bubby :) and Mommy

15. How many text messages do you get a month? I average at 100

16. Can you send pictures? Yessir. Would you like me to send you one? :P

17. What are the last 4 digits to your number? 0544

18. Go to your sent texts, what does the eighth one say? "Chris Brown went already.. Its ok." Again, it was for my sister about the BET Music Awards.

19. What about the 15th? Mine only goes to 14, and I only have 11 in my inbox. I delete periodically.

20. Who's the last person that you called? Sabiy. Well, it was more like Kay calling sabiy yesterday. The last person that I actually called was Bubby :)

22. Last person that texted you? Ahana

23. Last person you added to your address book? Ahana, and before that Vince

24. How many minutes are on your plan? 2000 shared with my family, but my mom assigns me 500, which I nener go over because I'm in the IN-Network, and calling my family doesn't use 'em up.

25. Do you like your phone? Yes, but I already want a new one. I've beaten this one up.

26. What is it? LG

27. Wanna give out your number? Only if you ask me for it.

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That was fun, especially since I'm alone at the Center. I'm just waiting around for 1:00 to come so I can go to work. Oh work at the Registrar's: It's not that bad, but it can get a bit tedious because I do the same thing over and over again. What you may ask? I input all the transfer transcipts into the UCI database. Joy.

But! I leave early today to give a TOUR! I love tours. hahah I'm giving Parents of Mini-Spoppers tour today. I've never had only parents, so let's see how that goes :/

Then tonight! Anton's sister's graduation party, if the Love Boat is going, or Sierra people. We'll just have to see.

Then this weekend! Kuya might come over so I can cook him lumpia and longanisa, and studying. I want a good grade in Biochem, and I'm a little behind seeing as how I haven't taken O-Chem yet. GAH! It's not that bad. It's actually quite ok. But I wanna make sure ya know?

NOW! My ode to the summer.

ODE TO THE SUMMER

OH, summer
You are here.
You're almost half way done.
But I have yet to have birthday cheer.
It's coming on Thusrday
And I'm having a dinner
At Cheekcake Factory or Buca di Bepo's
This won't help me get thinner.
I must for Atchie's wedding
Which is approachin fast.
I better get lighter.
I've been on sun blast.
It's a result for having given tours,
Which I absoutely love!
But it's so damn hot!
There're never clouds above.
Oh summer don't end
Because the school year is too long.
Nevermind, I wanna gradaute already!
School is expensive.
And I'm going to end it there because it is.

I'm hanging out with Dawddah and Diddy tomorrow

2006-06-22T19:47:00.000-07:00

and I'm excited! :D hahah Diddy and I might go to the Skirball... just to go. Then we'll meet up with Dawddah and "let the wind take us where it goes," she says. hahaha Dawddah's a funny cat. :D

SO! Today! I was supposed to go to LAX to meet Spess at the gate from her flight from Espana... but that was no go. Too bad! I was really, really looking forward to go. But those weren't in the cards for me.

I spent a lot of the day, however, watching poker tournaments in FSN with Lolo and Dad. Lame. I know. But I really find poker so interesting. Exciting even. Geebus I'm such a luh-hoo-suh-her. It's ok though. I'm fine with that. I am now at a time in my life where that doesn't matter anymore to me. Thank goodness.

Now here's a little ode to my sister... because she's the funniest cat.

Ode to Czierhl

This is an ode to Czierhl
For she is a funny cat.
She has pretty hair
And isn't at all fat.
She is the prettier sister.
At least, that's what I think.
She likes the colors purple and green,
and I, the latter and pink.
TADA!
That is the end.
Whoo hoo!
I'm glad she is my friend.

So that was her ode. I'm sure it didn't make much sense. I just made it up right now. haha.

I'm farting like a MADMAN!

2006-06-20T14:01:00.000-07:00

And I think it's the White Chocolate Latte from Coffee Bean that I shared with Drew yesterday evening. It's so bad for me... but oh so GOOD! haha

Last night was a good night nonetheless. Thank the Lord for BFF Drew and Czierhl... in the same room at the same time. They're unstoppable :D

I think that's it for now. I'm lazy... and have to poo :X

Don't you wish...

2006-06-19T10:42:00.000-07:00

...that could exchange your parents sometimes?

I posted yesterday, but I guess it didn't save... woops my bad. It was just a Happy Fathers' Day greeting to all you baby daddies out there.

This is going to be a loooooong week...

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added 11:07am

I'M SO MAAAD!!!! Why are parents so dummmmmbbb?!?! If I were a boy, I'm sure my mom and I would be just peachy, and she'd be my favorite parent. Granted, you're not supposed to have a favorite, but I know my parents do. Sadly, I think I'm my mom's and my sister is my dad's yet, I like my dad better, and Czierhl likes me. Oh the irony. But seriously though. WHO DOESN'T CARRY THEIR INSURANCE IN THEIR CAR?!?! Don't you know that ILLEGAL?! Why wouldn't you keep it in your car? What if you got pulled over or got into an accident?! ARE YOU STUPID OR SOMETHING?!?! AND THE THINK WAS THAT SHE BLAMED IT ON ME!!!! IT'S NOT MY CARRRRRRRRR!!!!! Geez... I know my mom isn't studid. She's the direct opposite or someone stupid... when it comes to being a nurse or a student. But when it comes to streets smarts, sometimes I worry about her. Thank God for college, my dad and my sister. If it were for college, my dad would still have a stick up his ass when it comes to raising me. Thank God for my dad or I'd stay in Irvine, never come home, grow up without my family, etc. My mom's a sweet lady... she really is. All my friends love her. She always the favorite mom to hang out with. But that's because they're not her kids. It easy to get along with parents when you don't belong to them. That'a my theory. Drew, Ben and I have talked about it. I think Drew and I talk about it every time we get together... (OH DREW HOW I NEED A REALITY BREAK WITH YOU!) GAH! I'm going nto go cry a river (not really) and watch Mulan on the Disney Channel.

I need to go back to Orange County again. Freedom tastes so sweet. I swear, I better get a car now. Thank God I have Lolo and my dad. Thank God!

When I'm in Irvine, I miss LA (being my family and friends)... When I'm in LA, I miss Irvine (my freedom, friends, and bed)... I just cant win can I?

I'm in LA

2006-06-17T17:53:00.000-07:00

and bored... and I was going through myspace bulletins. I'll be posting up surveys to kill time within the next couple of hours or so...

This survey is compliments of Mari: Good Myspace Survey, Don't Lie

1. WOULD YOU GET BACK WITH YOUR EX IF YOU COULD? Nope.

2. WHAT KIND OF SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING? My IHHS Spanish Club T-shirt from Senior year.

3. HAVE YOU MADE OUT WITH ANYONE ON YOUR MYSPACE FRIEND'S LIST? Yes.

4. DO YOU HAVE "A THING" FOR ANYONE ON YOUR MYSPACE TOP 8? No.

5. HOW MANY PEOPLE ON YOUR MYSPACE DO YOU KNOW IN REAL LIFE Most. The only ones I don't know in real life are the bands and music.

6. HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT TO HAVE? At least 2, but I want to have as many as I can afford.

7. DO YOU HAVE A GOOD RELATIONSHIP WITH BOTH YOUR PARENTS? I'd like to think so--good as in, we talk to each other and we don't hate each other.

8. DO YOU MAKE OVER 40K A YEAR? I wish.

9. WHAT NAME WOULD YOU WANT TO HAVE BESIDES THE ONE YOU HAVE? Delilah. I'm just kidding. I don't know. I wouldn't be me if I weren't "Czareine".

10. WOULD YOU EVER MAKE OUT WITH SOMEONE OF THE SAME SEX? Yea.

11. WHAT DID YOU DO FOR YOUR LAST BDAY? Islands with Kuya, Roddie, Bonnie, and Amy Sterling (because she worked there).

12. was already missing when I copied this survey.

13. WHAT'S YOUR MAIN RINGTONE ON YOUR PHONE? It depends. Bubbis is "Always Be My Baby". Sierrans are "Latin". Family is "Ring 1". Schoo/Business ones are "Ring 1". Friends are "Farewell," and it's not sad; it's pretty. MRSC kids are "Speedy Way". Ben-Ben Tee-Tee is "Come on Over". Dawddah is "Girl". Unknowns and unavailables are "Ring 3".

14. WHAT TIME DID YOU WAKE UP? 6:30am.

15.WHAT WERE YOU DOING AT MIDNIGHT LAST NIGHT? I was on my way home from Guppy's with Morrie and Lamont.

16. HOW MANY OF YOUR EX'S ARE ON YOUR FRIENDS LIST? 1.

17. DO YOU LIKE HAVING YOUR HAIR PULLED? That depends. I don't like it being pulled hard. But I like it being tugged on softly.

18. NAME SOMETHING YOU CAN'T WAIT TO DO? Start planning for Alternative Spring Break with my P.I.C.s, Atching Janelle's Wedding, Drew and my summer activities, and the Love Boat Apt Project with Steppie.

19. was already missing when I copied this survey.

20. DO YOU GET ALONG WITH YOUR SIBLING(S)? Usually. When we do fight, we can't stay mad at each other for more than like 10 minutes. For Czierhl, it can be a couple days. But she only stays mad because she wants me to feel bad, not because she's acutally still mad.

21. WHAT IS ONE THING YOU WISH YOU COULD CHANGE ABOUT YOURSELF? The fact that I'm allergic to everything.

22. IF YOU HAD $250,000, HOW WOULD YOU SPEND IT? I'd pay off loans, then take Czierhl and myself shopping and get my parents well-deserved, nice cars. Then I'd most likely not spend it, only because I know I should.

23. and 24. were already missing when I copied this survey.

25. LAST PERSON YOU CALLED? Czierhl

26. LAST THING YOU ATE? Kuishimbo Medium Beef platter.

27. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE MONTH (s)? July, because of my birthday.

28. YOUR LEAST FAVORITE MONTH? December, because it costs too much.

29. WHAT'S THE LAST PIECE OF CLOTHING YOU BORROWED? Probably a pair of one of Czierhl's shorts for pantulud (pajama). I might not have given 'em back either.

30. WHO IS GETTING ON YOUR NERVES RIGHT NOW? I shouldn't say. But Kay might know who. Well, she knows everyone I'm irritated with.

31. MOST VISITED WEBPAGE? Gmail, Yahoo! Mail, Facebook, Myspace, Bank of America respectively and equally. It's part of my routine for opening up a web browser.

32. LAST PERSON YOU TEXT MESSAGED? My Prima, Karen Cortez, Thursday night about our Sociology 2 final.

33.LAST PERSON TO MAKE YOU CRY? My aunts always want to make me cry, but as far as actual tears, Czierhl, but for a good reason. I cried from laughing.

34. WOULD YOU TAKE A BULLET FOR YOUR BEST FRIEND(S)? Of, freaking, course. I fucking kill for them, too.

35. FAVORITE TYPE OF DRINK? SODA! But I've cut down on that. Next bests are Cha for Tea Almond Green Tea Boba with less ice and more sweet or Mango Green Tea Boba with less ice and more sweet or Peach Black tea with less ice and more sweet, equally. Then water.

36. FAVORITE FOOD? Candy. But I've cut down on that, so shrimp. But I'm allergic to that, so Sushi or Yoshinoya Bowl from Gen Grill and Suchi.

37. FAVORITE DESSERT? Candy! Or Ice cream or cheescake. But I'm lactose intolerant, so cookies that Kay makes.

39. IF SOMEONE YOU HATED DIED, WHAT WOULD YOU DO? My heart would skip a beat, but then I'd laugh a little. I'm so mean.

40. DO YOU OWN A CAMERA PHONE? Yes.

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This survey is compliments of Ari: Doesn't Matter

Name:Czareine
Birthday: July 6, 1986
Birthplace: Los Angeles
Current Location: the foyer of Lolo's house
Eye Color: brown
Hair Color: black
Height: 5'1/2"
Right Handed or Left Handed: rightieeee
Your Heritage: Filipino
The Shoes You Wore Today: not shoes, but my black, thin strap, hard leather, one level Rainbow sandals
Your Weakness: sugar
Your Fears: failing someone or at something I love
Your Perfect Pizza: lots of mushrooms, less cheese, more pizza sauce, think crust
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: productive summer, lose weight and get fit, successful school year both in terms of academics and activities, get a job I like
Your Most Overused Phrase On AIM: :D, hahhahah, lol
Thoughts First Waking Up: "What time is it?", "What am I doing today?", "Do I really have to get up right now?"
Your Best Physical Feature: boobs?
Your Bedtime: usually before midnight, but lately, because of finals week, 3:30 in the afternoon.
Your Most Missed Memory: MRSC and the BFF's pre-2000
Pepsi or Coke: regular Pepsi or Diet Coke, but not regular Coke or Diet Pepsi
McDonalds or Burger King: McDonald's hands down
Single or Group Dates: group is fun, single is sweet;either is good
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: I can't tell the difference.
Chocolate or Vanilla: chocolate
Cappuccino or Coffee: neither; I prefer blended.
Do you Smoke?: Yes.
Do you Swear?: Yes.
Do you Sing?: Yes!
Do you Shower Daily: Yes, but sometimes I don't sleep, so it's mainly whenever I wake up.
Have you Been in Love?: Yes.
Do you want to go to College?: I'm already there.
Do you want to get Married?: Yes.
Do you belive in yourself?: Usually.
Do you get motion sickness: No.
Are you a health freak: No.
Do you get along with your Parents?: Usually. When we are yelling at each other, it's all out of love.
Do you like thunderstorms?: Hell, no.
Do you play an Instrument?: Yes. The piano and my voice. I also play a mean kazoo :D

In the past month...
have you drank alcohol?: Yes.
have you smoked?: Yes.
have you gone on a date?: I go on dates all the time--dates with Bubbis, with the roomies, with Ben-Ben Tee-Tee or Drew, friends.
have you gone to a mall?: No. Yeah, I know--shocking.
have you eaten a box of Oreos?: not yet
have you eaten sushi?: Yes.
have you been on stage?: Only in my head.
have you been dumped?: No.
have you gone skinny dipping?: No.
have you stolen anything?: Maybe, but I'm not sure.

Ever been drunk?: Yes.
Ever been called a tease?: Yes.
Ever been beaten up?: Yes, by Czierhl.
Ever shoplifted?: Yes.
How do you want to Die?: Quickly and painlessly, and hopefully in my sleep.
What do you want to be when you grow up?: Feelings have changed--a nurse.
What country would you most like to visit?: Spain with my sister.
Drugs I have taken: pharmaceutical and over-the-counter, weed, and cigs and alcohol if you consider those drugs

In a Boy/Girl...
Favorite Eye Color: Hazel-brown, just so long as when the sun hits the eye it sparkles.
Favorite Hair Color: What ever the natural hair color is for the guy, but it doesn't matter if it's a girl, just so long as it looks good.
Short or Long Hair: It depends on what they can pull off.
Height: At least a few inches taller than me
Weight: doesn't matter, just so long as they're healthy
Best Clothing Style: whatever looks good

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This one is compliments of Kim: 69 Questions to Start the Summer (not really and you'll see why)

01. Are you in a relationship? Yes.

02. Do you hate more than 3 people? Yes

03. How many homes have you lived in? 6: Lolo's house, Mom and Daddy's house, Victorville, Sierra!, Atching Lei's house, Turtle Rock Vista 218 aka the Love Boat!

04. What is your favorite candy bar? Twix

05. What are your favorite shoes? My black Chucks and my checker or penguin Vans

06. was missing when I copied this survey.

07. What was your least favorite subject this year? Psych 9A, so I dropped it.

08. What was your favorite subject this year? Campus Reps Training and Creative Fiction

09. Do you own a Britney Spears CD? Yes.

10. Have you ever thrown up in public? No.

11. Name something that's always on your mind. I'm always making a plan in my head. Whether I actually fall through is another question.

12. What is your favorite music genre. I don't have a preference. I listen to everything... Yes, even country.

13. What is your sign? Cancer

14. What time were you born? 1:06am

15. Do you like beer? Yes.

16. Have you ever made a prank call? Yes.

17. What is the most embarrassing CD you own? I don't consider any CDs I own embarrassing.

18. Are you sarcastic? Sometimes.

19. What are your favorite colors? PINK!, green, brown, black, grey blue, white, deep orange and red

20. How many watches do you own? 3, but I don't wear them.

21. Summer or winter? Summer

22. Spring or fall? Fall

23. What is your favorite color to wear? Pink or green

24. Pepsi or Sprite? Sprite, although I prefer Sierra Mist to Sprite

25. What color is your cell phone? Silver.

26. Where is your second home? The UCI Volunteer Center and Housing Office 209

27. Have you ever slapped someone? Yes.

29. How many lamps are in your bedroom? 4: two floor lamps and one dedk lamp, and one table lamp

30. How many video games do you own? They're my roomies, and I don't know how many there are. But there are a lot!

31. What was your first pet? Maxie, my German Shepard/Saint Bernard mix

32. Have you ever had braces? Yes.

33. Do looks matter? I'm not going to lie... yes.

34. Do you use Chapstick? Yes, but I can only use Cherry flavor. I get an allerigic reaction to the one in the black tube.

35. Name 3 teachers from your school. O'Connell, Frank, Egan. They're all from the School of Social Science.

36. American Eagle or Abercrombie? I have more of AE--it's more in my budget.

37. Are you too forgiving? Depends on who I'm supposed to forgive.

38. Do you own something from Hot Topic? I think I used to. Something Care Bears I'm sure.

39. How many children do you want? At least 2, but as many as I can afford.

40. What is your favorite breakfast? PANCAKES!

41. Do you own a gun? No. But I used to have a water gun.

42. Have you ever thought you were in love? Yes.

43. When was the last time you cried? Thursday night/Friday morning because Czierhl made me laugh.

44. What did you do 3 nights ago? I played with the roomies, then I knocked out.

45. When was the last time you went to Olive Garden? Sophomore year, when I still hung out with the Recess Crew before they were the Recess Crew.

46. was already missing when I copied this survey.

47. Have you ever been in a castle? No. Castles kinda scare me.

48. was already missing when I copied this survey.

49. Do you know anyone named Bertha? I did in elementary school. Her little sister was annoying.

50. Have you ever been to Kentucky? No.

51. Do you own something from Banana Republic? Yes.

52. Are you thinking about somebody right now? I wasn't until I read this question. Now, I'm thinking about my mom because she took my slippers.

53. Have you ever called someone Boo? hahah No.

54. Do you smoke? Yes... Why do all the surveys ask this?

55. Do you own a diamond ring? Yes.

56. Are you happy with your life right now? I'm pretty content with it.

57. Do you dye your hair? Yes, twice a year.

58. Does anyone like you? Yes, but they don't know that I know. And I'm going to keep it that way. It's complicated enough.

59. What year were you born? 1986

60. What were you doing May of 1994? I was in the 4th grade.

61. Do you own a Backstreet Boys CD? Yes.

62. McDonald's or Wendy's? McDonald's

63. Do you like yourself? For the most part.

64. Are you closer to your mother or father? Mom

65. Favorite feature of the opposite sex? a cute face

66. Are you afraid of the dark? Sometimes.

67. Have you ever eaten tooth-paste? Not on purpose.

68. Do you have a webcam? No.

69. Have you ever stripped? Yes, my leg of skin, when I tried to wax once.

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So that was the end of that. I'm sure I'll actually be updating more, at least this week, and hopefully throughout the whole summer, on account of that fact that I won't be doing much (probably more surveys)....

... and it feels SOOOO GOOOOODDD!

HAPPY EASTER!

2006-04-16T13:03:00.000-07:00

Hi, everyone who still reads my blog!

So! It's been a while. It's actually been since finals, oh I'd say about like over a month ago. And today is EASTER!!! :D

Easter is a fun holiday. I remember when I was younger, all the cousins and I would run around the park outside Auntie Lita and Uncle Peter's old house (now Kuya Jeff and Atching Jenifer's house) trying to find all the hidden eggs that the older cousins and the parents used to hide. I especially loved those eggs because there used to be money or a money subsitute in them. And after the egg hunt, all the younger cousins would line up in front of Lolo and Lola and they'd give us, $1, $5, or $10 dollars, depending on how old you are, or if you were able to ask Lolo for more. hahah Oh those were the good ole days.

For a while, our Easter's went on a bit of a hiatus. We just got older. I was going into high school. Everyone left and went to college, graduated, or got married. Czierhllie was the only one still in elemetary school. And I just remember a lot of transition and change stuff happening with the family. Kinda sucks for those babies at the time that didn't get as fun an Easter as the cousins did, but of course, there also weren't that many babies... at least not ones old eanough, or whose parents didn't come to the Madlangbayan side party until after the hunt.

But now, I think we're all trying to make up for it. The family is in tact again. There are SHIT LOADS of babies popping out of my cousins left and right. It's kinda crazy. They outnumber us even. There are 29 great-grandkids, and only 26 of us grandkids, of which only 22 of us are in the US, and only a little over hald are married--contributing to the 2 and a quarter dozen babies. So yea... Now are egg hunts ROCK! Of course, those of us still in college, high school, or newly out of college, or the oldie who's the favorite (namely the Skankstas) still try engage in the egg hunt, only targetting the ones with money. Why? Because we were the ones who hid them. Of course, we don't steal all the money. That would suck; and also because the bigger kids are to fast for us starting to get older (namely the Skankstas).

My dad just called right now, and he's turning left on Campus, then soon into my apartment complex. I have to call Atching Audra to let her know I'm leaving for LAke Forest, which is only like 12 minutes away. I'm excited for this year's Easter party. I love family parties--at least when I know the Skankstas are going to be there.

HAPPY EASTER, EVERYONE!!!!

I have a midterm in a few minutes

2006-02-16T10:31:00.000-08:00

... but since I have enought time to spit out a little diddle... I will.

So, I haven't updated in a while, even though I said I would updated about certain things. And I still will! But not until Sunday or so... because I have a midterm tomorrow, and my best friend Drew's birthday party is this weekend. WOO!

This is pretty much a pointless post, but I thought that I'd do it anyway... It's not like anyone really reads this blog anymore anyway...

i stole this from ms. diana olympia

2006-01-25T02:14:00.000-08:00

... because I'm bored... although I am having quite fun watching old episodes of F.R.I.E.N.D.S. with the roomies and honorary roomies....

A 50-question Survey:

1. Do you still talk to the person you had your first kiss with?

yessum. I love my BFF Tee-Tee

2. What would you do with 1,000 plastic spoons?

invite everyone I know to play a good game of spoons (the card game)

3. What did you do when you weren't in school in the 2nd grade?

When I was wasn't in school, I was most likely REALLY sick because I was always sick aroudn that age for some reason.

4. What is the best thing about your job?

Currently, I don't have one. But I am SO on the lookout!

5. Do you like more than one person right now?

nope

6. Are you against same sex marraige?

7. no idea where number 7 went.

Diana lost it, so I can't answer it... lol...

8. Where are you going on your next vacation?

I was supposed to go on vaycay with my family and family best friends to the Philippines? or Hawaii? or something like that. I have no idea...

9. or 9

refer to #7

10. Are most of your friends guys or girls?

girls

11. Do you own any furniture from Ikea?

Oh God. Have you been to my apartment?

12. or 12

refer to #9

13. If you could have one super power what would it be?

ability to snap my fingers, and end up where I wanna be

14. Where have you lived most of your life?

Los Angeles, in Lolo's house

15. What was the last convo you had about?

Well, since I'm watching F.R.I.E.N.D.S., it's got someting to do with the show.

16. Where do you see yourself in four years?

still in Irvine, graduating... hopefully

17. What is your favorite smell?

MY STINKY!

18. What is your favorite sound?

"Safety!"

19. Are you moody?

I guess..... No.. Yea.. I am.

20. where the frick is 20?!

refer to #12

21. Have you ever done anything vindictive to your classmate?

I helped Ashley Huli's spill nachos on this bitch we hated, but she wasn't in our class. But I know that Atching Janelle has done something to one of my high school classmates when that person worked at Nordstrom.

22. Have you ever gone to therapy?

23. Have you ever played Spin-the-Bottle?

24. Have you ever toilet papered someone's house?

no... surprisingly, even though I'd always attempted to with some buddies

25. Have you ever liked someone but never told them?

of course

26. Have you ever gone camping?

Yes, and it was SO FUN! I love the group!

27. Have you ever had a crush on your brother's friend?

I don't have a brother, and my sister's friends are jailbait. lol...

28. Have you ever gone to a nude beach?

No; that thought makes me nervous.

29. Have you ever had gone streaking?

No; that thought makes me nervous.

30. Have you ever had a stalker?

Yea; Jeff, the guy who worked on my house the summer before I moved to Irvine.

31. Have you ever gone skinny dipping?

No; That thought makes me nervous.

32. Have you ever laughed so hard you cried?

Yeah! All the time! Good times! Good times!

33. Have you ever gone to a party where you were the only sober person?

Usually, there are others.

34. Have you ever been cheated on?

Yes; stupid high school boys.

35. Have you ever felt betrayed by your best friend?

OH HELL YES! fuuuuuuccckkk... You know what I'm saying? shieeeeeettt.... (Obviously, I'm not over it.)

36. Have you ever lied to your parents?

37. Have you ever been out of the U.S.?

Philippines and Canada

38. Have you ever thrown up from working out?

No, thank God.

39. Have you ever gotten a haircut so bad that you wore a hat for a month straight?

Even if I've had a bad hair cut, I look even worse in hats. Although, one time in the 5th grade, Lolo cut my sister and my bangs, and I pinned 'em up until they grew out all the way. Then I didn't have bangs again until senior year.

40. Have you ever eaten 3 meals from 3 different fast food places in 1 day?

Yes. Welcome to College.

41. ?!?!

refer to #20

42. Have you ever spied on someone?

Yea?

43. Have you ever slept with one of your coworkers?

The only time I worked, all my co-workers were girls, AND! I'm in a committed relationship.

44. Have you ever seen your best friend naked?

girl? Yes. guy? Pretty much.

45. Who was the last person who called you?

Bubby

46. When was the last time you slept for more then 12 hours straight?

probably today.

47. Have you ever been arrested?

nope

48. Who is your best friend(s)?

BFFM
BFFA
Tee-Tee
Dawddah Offspring
Bubby
the Skankstas
the Love Boat
the 201 Shockers

49. Have you ever stolen anything?

yea... nothing exciting... I went through this whole phase...

50. Have you ever drank egg nog?

Surprisingly, no. But I do wish to try someday.

So that was the end of the 50-question survey, even though there were some 4 questions missing. And the timing is good! The end of this episode of F.R.I.E.N.D.S. is over. Good shit.

To update about:

MCIA and the Clippers Game
School--Time to Catch up on EVERYTHING!
ASB (Alternative Spring Break) '06
The 5-Car Collision
Twin: Miss Los Angeles Chinatown

I'm sick

2005-12-29T19:38:00.000-08:00

AND IT SUCKS!

So! I got sick on Christmas Day--I don't know how or who I caught my bug from, but Merry Christmas to me for getting sick that Sunday.

And I'm still sick. But I'm better. At least now, I can breathe through at least one nostril, and that hasn't always been the case since Christmas. It was getting really bad, too. Started off with an asthma attack, then sneezing attacks, then phlegm and snot attacks, and now... I'm only coughing with a bit of a stuffy nose, although I still can't breathe all that well on account of my asthma. WOOP-DEE-DOO!

As a result of all this sickness, I've also been sleeping A WHOLE HELL OF A LOT! No joke! Sleep early, wake up late. Story of my week. hahaha However! I didn't sleep for a long time last night BECAUSE Best Friend Ben-Ben decided to take a trip to LA at 1 in the morning. lol... AND! He broke my fence :P He didn't stay all that long, but it was a good visit nonetheless.

Today was my first day without Czierhl around me the whole day... it was a really quiet day. I was supposed to go to Irvine, but my mom just couldn't miss her tagalog dramas, and then it ended up being too late. I still would have gone to Irvine Spectrum if my parents weren't waiting for my sister to come home. If they knew what time she was going to be home, then they wouldn't be worried, and we could have gone out. But I like how I did nothing all day. YEA FREAKING RIGHT!

No seriously... I'm in pain and anguish and just fucking ready to go back to Irvine al-fucking-ready. I don't do shit in LA, I can't do shit in LA, I'm starting to abhore being in LA. Don't get my wrong though... When I haven't been in LA for a while, I really start to miss it, but I can't only take this place, this house, these people for so long. And I always love our family reunions... uh-huh... I love being criticized for my weight, my height, boyfriend, school, etc... Shall I say? WOOP-DEE-FREAKING-DOO!

Ngeh... Break is almost over... I can't wait. Only a few more days and then I get to go back home, where I I have to take care of financial aid, my classes, and book buying. WOOT! Still that's all better than doing shit. I duno... Even when I'm not doing anything in Irvine, I'm never bored... but in LA... SHIT! I get in trouble for sleeping or not sleeping when "I'm not supposed to!"

Ayayay... I can't breathe. I'm going to find my inhaler, and maybe overdose with it... Just keeding. BUT! It will put me to sleep. I love sleep :P

too-much-togetherness-anxiety

2005-12-21T20:56:00.000-08:00

OK! SO! I'm here in LA... and not that I hate being in LA, but I hate being in LA. Even though I intended on visiting people, one again drama, along with the guilt of familial neglect, and obligation to two and soon to be three little girls has taken over my winter break.

Yeaaaa... I duno. And I really, really miss, Bub. Call us spoiled and lucky that we get to see each other than alotta other couples, but dangit! It's been a long time since we've seen each other. I seriously don't remember last year's winter break being this emotionally draining. Czierhl is right, I am a drama queen, but I can't help it. I just.... wanna sleep. But I can't sleep for too long or I'll get a headache... or more likely... yelled at for sleeping too long. Maybe it's not such a good idea that I start driving. Once I start, I might not come home anymore. And that's ANOTHER THING! Driving is freaking drama in this family. I guess I'm partly to blame, but when my driving dilemma business becomes everyone else's business in this house, it's no longer just drama, but hell. There's just WAY too much hyper-tension in this house--too-much-togetherness-anxiety.

Separation anxiety is no sweat comepared to this shit, 'cause trust, I've got separation anxiety, too. Before the break, I really missed LA, and now, I just can't wait to get back home to Irvine, where the drama isn't as overwhelming. Ya know?

I know this'll all blow over. But I'm sad that this Christmas doesn't feel like Christmas. Too-much-togethereness-anxiety killed it.

My arm hurts...

2005-12-17T23:35:00.000-08:00

... and I think it's because I've been playing solitaire on my iPod for like most of the day... LOL

Lolo and Uncles Sot came back today. YAY! BUTUL NG PAKWAN!!!! I love it! RAWR!

Maddy went home, but Lily came over. SHE'S SO CUTE! lol... and everyone's been abusing my new baby Mickey lately. It's sad, but it will survive. lol... It's starting to get all saggy like the other babies. lol.

While Czierhl was listening to music all day, I was bugging the shit outta her. It's because I love her. Remember Czierhl, "I FUCKING LOVE YOU! I HURT YOU BECAUSE I LOVE YOU! SAY YOU LOVE ME, BITCH!!!" :D

Ok... so while on break... I've been doing a lot of another thing. I've totally been watching the Disney channel. I've been all up in that Disney shit man! SSSerious dude. lol I like it. I think I need to watch more Disney. It makes me a happier person.

HOLY HELL! It's only freaking not even midnight and I'm tired! GEEZ!

AH! I can't wait to go out with Dawddah next week. I'm EXCITED!!!!! I MEEESS HA! WEEEE!! We just need to set a date. WOOT!

Ok so change of plans from that last post:

DMV on Monday
No more dinner/dance with the entire dance community
and I don't know what else. Lol

OH! I need to email my roommies about bills.. ayah!

I'm kinda bored here at home. It's not that I can't go out because they know I don't do anything at home, but it's like... I don't wanna go out, but don't wanna stay home. It's kinda like I just wanna go home in Irvine and do nothing. I talked to my little sister about this, and she totally knows what I mean. And pretty much most everyone I talk to. LA is just different. It's such a different environment... and it's not always a kinda warm and tender environment. Maybe it'll be better now that Lolo's home. He's funny and always makes me day :D

AH! CHRISTMAS IS ON SUNDAY!.... OH JACK! MRSC XMAS PARTY IS ON FRIDAY! dangit! I gotta get my person a gift! BUT! I get to see BESTFRIENDS! I LOVE THEM!!! I miss Ben-Ben and Lys the most because I haven't seen them in forever and day. Who's excited? **OO OO! PICK ME PICK ME!**

Lol.. I'm so bored. that i'm talking nonsense. This week is going to be a good week. I know it. :D

HEWO! (this'll porbably be a long post...)

2005-12-13T19:27:00.000-08:00

SO! It's winter break... and of course, I'm in L.A. It feels good to do absolutely nothing, now that fall quater '05 is goodbye... WOO HOO!

Plans:

Tonight:

babysit the gal, starting tonight (I think)

Wednesday, Dec. 14:

I don't think I'm doing anything tomorrow except babysitting. WOOT!

Thursday, Dec. 15:

DMV
go back to Irvine to get more clothes, bills, and laundry to do at home (for free)
help Czierhl review for her math test on Friday

Friday, Dec. 16:

Uhm... I duno.
Maybe go to Immac for Christmas program...

Saturday, Dec. 17:

Lolo comes back from the Philppines on Saturday, which means a lotta family over on Saturday... I'm excited... Woop-dee-freaking-doo...

Sunday, Dec. 18:

Matt-u's Birthday! FINALLY!
Church
Probably go out with the family.. i.e. the Grove :P (as always neener neener)

Monday, Dec. 19 - Wednesday, Dec 21:

no idea... aside from babysitting, that is.

Thursday, Dec. 22:

Dinner/Dance with like basically every dance team I know... possibly... still have to get details on that :P

Friday, Dec. 23:

Christmas party with the group... HEY MRSC, JR! WE NEED TO GET ON THAT WHOLE GIFT LIST THING!

Saturday, Dec. 24:

the traditional Christmas Eve with the Meneses Family (this year at Auntie Myes's). I'm excited!

Sunday, Dec. 25:

MERRY CHRISTMAS and HAPPY BIRTHDAY, LOLA!
Church, of course
the traditional Christmas Day with the Madlangbayan Family (this year at Lolo's). I'm excited. Kinda... Let's hope hell doesn't break lose on Christmas Day. I LOVE BIG FAMILIES! THEY'RE CRRRAAAAZY! :P OO! we get to see new baby ysabel! woo hoo!

Monday, Dec. 26 - Thursday, Dec. 29:

I have no freaking idea.

Friday, Dec. 30:

Happy Birthday, Kuya Rodell!

Saturday, Dec. 31:

New Year's Eve (I don't know where, and with which side of the family :P)

Sunday, Jan. 1 2006:

NEW YEAR'S DAY!
watch reruns of the Tournament of Roses Parade all day long, and eat yummy ham left-overs

Now, after today and before I have to go back to school (of which Week 0 starts on Jan. 4th) I have a few musts:

shopping with Mommy and Sister
Muddah/Dawddah Pow Wow
find a day to visit with other friends and homies both in Irvine and not, especially Bubs. or plan another freaking Guppy's night because Kuya and Harry failed to tell me, and Rexford informed me too late.. rawr
pay some bills/rent
talk to Bubs a lot
sleep a lot
eat a lot
talk to or see Dawddah a lot since when she's back in L.A.
playtime with Lolo, the little girls, and the skankstas :P

There's probably more that I should and want to do, but I'm helping Dawddah with studying. Later days! Was this as long as I thought it would be?

neener neener :D

I'm GROWWWWING!!!

2005-10-08T10:53:00.000-07:00

...I wish...

Lol.. but anyhoo... I'm in L.A. right now... MY HOOOOMEEE!!! So I haven't been home in a while and it feels good to just relax. I was going to home to Irvine again tonight because I have midterms, but I dunoooo.... My sister and I are just watching our daytime MTV. We might go out later because (as always) I'm in the mood to shop or watch a movie or something. ajsdhfksajhfd :D

So I'm just chillin' and to pass the time I've decided to blog.. Note: Good job, Lolo! I just heard him pass a fatty burp! lol... anyhoo... I'm excited about this weekend!!!!!! If you don't know what's going on, then read the "It's October" post...

OR! I can just tell you.

It's the Annual Sierra Football Game and After-Party!!! Well, I know for sure that I'm going to the game. I have to... I missed them both last year. But I don't know so much about the after party. BECAUSE! I have to be home for the next morning! I'm excited!

Aww. A CUTE NOTE: My daddy tried to wake me up this morning to say, "Hi," and maybe talk a little before he went to work. But I was knocked out. I just have slight recollection of him tapping my arm, then tapping it a little harder and then saying, "Hey! Wake up! Good morning!" Lol.. I didn't get to see him last night when I got home from Cerritos. OH MY GOD!!! Cerritos. So it was Auntie Mye's birthday and my Uncle Gary (her husband) got her a car for her birthday! How freaking sweet is that?! Shieeeeeetttt... It was either that or get her kitchen redone.. and I figure.. If my wife wanted either of those, too. I'd get the car as well (at least I'd be able to use it to :D) But that was cool. Good luck to my little cousin, Danielle, today on her performances! She's so cute!

OK! So my sister wants to go online AND! I'm getting tired of blogging. I think time calls for a shower or something.. NO! FOOOD!! I'm HUNGRY! Lol.. :D

Later days!

MUAH!

Bye Bye Da Vinci...

2005-10-06T09:26:00.000-07:00

SO! Today is my last day, at least for now, at my job, Da Vinci Business Graphics, Inc. And I actually am quite sad. I'm really going to miss my co-workers. It just makes me sadder that I won't get to see any of them. Well, all but one. So it's really quiet right now, and it's inhibiting my ability to do my job, because it's too quiet. There is no one else on the phone with me, or chatting with me online from 2 stations away. Poop. Even though this is a quiet last day, and a good way to leave a job, it's kinda lonely. Well, hopefully I'll get to see them around UCI. I mean, I'm sure I will. Good thing I have their sns. Aww... I didn't realize how attached I've become. :(

Oh... It's ok. I will survive. But since it's really quiet, and it's early in the morning, and I'm starting to get weary, and I'm running outta things to do online, I decided that I'm going to blog. YAY! Dude... That's like 2 days in a row. I'm proud. **patting myself on back**

Wow. I'm sleepy. I slept... let's see... at around 2am--talking to Bubby, and trying to resolve some issues. I'm still excited though about our 1 year. CRAZY!! :D Makes me smile.

So today, is gonna kinda be an easy day. Work right now. Class. Research. Class. Research. Stuff in between (I haven't decided yet). Kaba Meeting. Go home. Laundry!!! Read. Room arranging (still). Hopefully, I will get to sleep early. I think I'm going to sleep in at least tomorrow morning since it might be one of my last days getting so sleep in. pft... That's alright.

Hmm. I have alotta projects in mind. But I'm not sure when or if I'm going to get to so them. I need to so some major planning and scheduling and I should stick to it. Oh what happened to the days when schedules used to run my life (Winter quarter '05). Those were so organized and it seemed that I had time for everything! GEEBUS!! I need to go back to that. Lol. Hmm. Note to self: Go to the Registrar's to add research.

Alright, I think that's it--mainly due in part to the fact that I have to go potty.

Later days! Stay tuned. MUAH!

IT'S OCTOBER!!!!

2005-10-05T22:17:00.000-07:00

Ok!!! SO!!! October is kinda a big month... quite exciting...

SO! Saturday, October 1st already happened.

And so did Sunday, October 2. And on this day in 2005, I finally bought a bed frame and dresser. So now my bedroom looks like a bedroom. I could finally decorate and fully unpack!! YAY!! Lord knows that I had so many boxes to unpack. For a little person, I have A LOT of stuff. lol... But yea.. I slept at like 4am that day to finish at least my bed. And I had no drill to drill holes where there are supposed to be screws, SO I had to do it myself by hand, which also meant that my hand was so tired and stuff... like seriously tired. I had to take a break every couple of hours because after some time of trying to hand-make holes your arm gets tired ya know? SO! I slept late. But I finished my bed and it was so worth it. And this was all possible thanks to the help of my wonderful roomies, Steppie and Sabiy :D

Monday, October 3. So I was dead tired. But I had to keep on moving on and continuing with my day. So of course, I did. I woke up early to start on my dresser, and then went on with the normal part of my day, but when I came back from class/research, I finished my dresser. And I finished it pretty late because it still took a while because for the most part I did all the building myself, and then I knocked the eff out after. LOL

Tuesday, October 4. So on Tuesdays, I have no work, but I will woke up early because I'm supposed to have early classes at the time, but they weren't mandatory and SO I decided to start unpacking summore. And I did. And then before I knew it, I lost track of time. AND THEN! I ended up not going to class because I really needed to finish. Dude... I spent the WHOLE DAY unpacking and finishing up. lol... AND I'M STILL OT FINISHED!!! I didn' realize how much stuff I have. Dude, unpacking and rearranging things really takes it outta you. Dude, I was so tired, and then I ended up knocking out again. And it was gooooood...

Today, Wednesday, October 5. Work. Good morning. Last day to see Sonica, one of my wonderful co-workers. It's ok. Then caught the bus and went to school. Didn't get to buy my book because it still isn't at Textmania. POO. Went to class. Went to class. Had lunch. Went to class. Went to the library. Went to class. Went to research. Went to Albertsons. Went to Mesa to see Steppie and CADC dance. Came home. And now I'm waiting for my wonderful Roomy Kay, Wife By Association Corey, and Twin Melody cook some yummies!!! MMMM I LOVE FAMILY DINNERS! I need to finish my room still. And then I need to do laundry. POOP... Today is going to be a long day. AYAYAY!

Tomorrow, Thursday, October 6 is going to another long day, I think. It's my last day with DVBG at least for now. I really have to concentrate on school, and work isn't too good an idea since I can only really work at DVBG in the mornings. If I'm going to get a job, I need to be able to work at night, with just as flexible hours. But yea, then it's off to class, the research, then class, then research again. Then Kaba meeting. I've been more involved in Kaba meetings so far. And they are so fun. It's so nice to see my B.Fresh Familia all over the board. :D Then I come home and catch up on reading and homework.

Friday, October 7, is class and research and homework and reading all day long. I really need to read a lot and do alotta homework. Ayayay... College. WAY harder than high school.

I'm going home for the next two weekends.

I already have a Bio Midterm on Wednesday, October 12.

Friday, October 14: Sierra Football Game/After Party

Saturday, October 15: DMV!!!!!!!! :D

Saturday, October 22: ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY!!!!!! Monumental. Absolutely monumental. I love it! YAY!!!!! I wonder what we're doing :D I'm excited!

Sunday, October 30: Day Light Savings Ends

Monday, October 31: Halloween. I don't think I'm doing anything or going anywhere. What should I be for Halloween? Any suggestions?

Sometime this month, there's supposed to be a BFF Outting at Knott's Scary Farm. And the Skankstas are still trying to plan Disneyland. YAY! I'm going to try to get Dawddah out here for a Muddah/Dawddah outting. This month is big. I LOVE IT! :D I love October!!! And that's October for you. That's it y'all. Stayed tuned for more to come.

MUAH!

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Muddah/Dawddah Outting pushed to November on account of the fact that Dawddah has a lotta school stuff. I'm a proud Muddah, who loves her Dawddah... :D

KILLED IT!

2005-09-02T15:36:00.000-07:00

Alright, so of course, I'm here at work and I'm bored as all hell, especially since my lovely fellow ladies at DaVinci aren't here on the phone with me...

So anyway, since, I'm alone, of course I decide to kill time by AIMing and blog/xanga hopping. And after visiting one of these online journals, my love for Maroon 5 has been slightly tainted. Sad thought... killed my favorite song, too! DOESN'T THAT SUCK?!

RAWR!! This weekend is going to be fun!! I won't see mommy though... She went to ABQ to visit grandmother dearest for the long weekend. But it's ok. Only good can come out of that :D (Sissy Star are you excited? sorry it's sister-sister thang)... Anyway, the weekend will be spent with the group/BFFs... WOO HOO!!! If only Alben could be there... I miss you love. We should hang out... It's going to be filled with bowling, swimming, singing, dancing, prancing around! I'm excited!! YAY!! heheheh... Im excited to see at least all the lady BFFs... it's usually hard to get al three of us together at the same time. It's good though, we three don't have school until the end of September! We need to make the most of that man!! SEEERIOUS!

alright... im bored withthis.. later days!

The Lack of Tagging on the TagBoard...

2005-08-11T18:55:00.000-07:00

and it kinda makes me sad... hahahah (Why I just laughed? I have no idea...)

ok... so0o0o0! Yea. I was looking through my tagboard, and because people barely use blogger any more, or read blogs and xangas, it's kinda sad because no one tags the tagboard any more. Yes, yes. In the olden days of xanga, I had my chatterbox, which had archiving, and I liked it. But I think tagboards are easier to use. But no one except, for Thuper Thtar, Dawddah, and Ultimatest use it because they are the only ones that read my blog, except for that one comment that Sensei wrote. Hmm... which makes me wonder how she got the link? Probably from Czierhl. :D Oh yea! and there's commenting. You have comment, people! hahahaha I duno. I guess I'm just being selfish or self-centered. But at the same time, I need these things to serve as diversions because I usually do all this stuff at work, and I have nothing to do at work besides surf the internet or chat online if there are people to chat with in between the calls that I make. Ya know? Alright. I need to go I'm not doing anything with my life, and ew there was an ant on my laptop, and it just walked across the LCD screen. But I killed it. I hate ants!!! THEY ARE EVERYWHERE!!! hahahhaah one of my roommates is freaking out because they encountered something that they had never encountered before. But I can't talk about that. It's not my place to say, but I thought I'd mention the naiveness of some of the people I know. But it's understood that they were new to this kinda thing. hahahahhahaha

OK! I'm out. Stay tuned for more. MUAH! :D

My Hectic Life (sometimes)

2005-08-06T13:11:00.000-07:00

Ok so dude. There are a lotsa things that are going on right now, and I'm so stressed. I don't usually who how stressed I am, but I really am. HOH MAN... Alright, so I'm loving the new apartment, but as I said in a previos post, being alive costs a lot dude! Like SERIOUS. I got rent due soon. I gotta pay for utilities. My bank account is negative right now because my rent from last month and renters insurance took it all outta me. I gotta pay off others stuff. And I owe other people moneys. HOH MAN! shieettttt. Stressful. Stressful. Stressful. Dang, thank goodness I'm working more hours at work for the rest of the summer, but when regular classes start I'm not going to have as many hours. So can we say, "Pay cut?" HOH MAN! Shiet. I might have to find a weekend job, but that won't leave me time to do anything!!!! I'd have school and work, and I'd have to reduce Bub and Boob time, and time with the roomies, and time going home, etc... dangit!!!

That sucks. Man, why can't my life just be steady even just for a little bit. Not too much stress and drama, and not to much boredom. I'm either in a state of total insanity or total boredom with nothing to do no matter how much I try. That's not too great. Granted... I like having nothing to do sometimes, but I can take only a certain amount, and just when I'm about to die with boredom, life throws a freaking meteor at me! THE HELL!! GARSH!!

This week, I've just felt really stressed. REALLY STRESSED! You have no idea. I'm getting into tifts with bub about getting along with some of his family. I get into tifts with my family for their stupidity. I get into tifts with Czierhl about the stupidest shit in the world. I get into tifts with myself about being stressed, stupid, fat, tired, lazy, broke, etc. THAT SUCKS!!!!!!!! skajfdhahfkasjdhfaksjdhfkasjdhfasdjhfashfd Czierhl is reading as I'm typing hahaha... anyway... Thank goodness I haven't been getting into shit with any of my friends because Lord knows there been enough of that. shieeeet...

heh well FUCK! Story of my life... stress... drama... my life is such a soap opera. Hm... I noticed a trend in my latest posts. Before, when I'd xanga and the old blog, when I had a problem the whole world would know about it because I'd post about it. But now I find that for some, not all, of my stresses, I mention it, but I don't go into any real depth, which I think is a good thing now. Hmm. Sorry.. that was just a little sidenote on a little self-realization I had.

Hmph... I need to talk to Bub... Thank goodness I'm seeing the Trio later. Hmm.. I need a playdate with Atsing Janelle, and beach day with Czierhl and Atsing Audra. And the Skankstas still need their playdate. Damn... we've all just gotten so busy. heh.. the trials, tribulations, and sacrifices of attempting to and actually growing up. pft... I wish I never needed to grow up. Life was so much easier when I was a little girl (not that I'm not a little girl now.. HAH), but I just remember not having to deal with anything. I remember my biggest stress would be trying to run away from my mom and cousins when they would try to feed me, or trying not o kill Czierhl when we were little because we both wanted mommy's attention. And now.. ahha shiet.. I mentioned some of it already.. pft.. alright.. this is enough of this little episode.

Stay tuned for more... MUAH!

Why so early?

2005-08-05T08:34:00.000-07:00

OK! SO! This morning, I woke up disgustingly early (considering that I don't really have class and work at 2). I freaking woke up at 6:00am!! *DUN DUN DUN* WHY?!?! It's really weird and gross because I slept at 1:30!! HAHAHA! Well who knows? I think I fid it really disturbing to have woken up so early because I woke up before my alarm clock, which was scheduled to wake me up at a beatuiful 8:00am. Yes, I know. It seems like that would also be horribly early, but in actuality, it really isn't at all, considering that I am so used to Atsing Lei waking me up in the morning for work and school, from Lake Forest to Irvine, at 6:20. However, 6:20am is still later than 6:00. Why I awoke? The reason will just have to remain a mystery in its own little strange and warped twilight zone.

Don't mind my mention of the "twilight zone." When I went home over the previous weekend, my daddy, sister, sister's friend, and I were watching the new versions of the twilight zone. It is no longer in black in white, of course, and not as scary as it seemed when I was younger, watching episodes with Atsing Audra occasionally in Carson, while her brothers are running wild all over the place... well, mostly Kuya DJ. And so having watched these newer episodes of the twilight zone, I realized, I WAS A DAMN FOOL for being so afraid of those shows. They are not even scary. I think it was the effect of the black and white show, in addition to my cousins' tendencies to try and scare me because they could. I can't really hold it against them because although I am the second to youngest grandchild on the Madlangbayan side, my little sister Czierhl, who isn't really so little anymore, fell victim to all the older cousins cruel ways, including me. Sad thought, but the truth. Hmm.. Now as I continue to write, I forget what path I was attempting to make when I started this entry. But that's ok. It wouldn't have the characteristics of the usual entries that I have posted in the past if it were actually organized.

And, now, as I just reread over what I had written, I wonder why I am talking like this? I think it's the effects of having woken up so early. It's ok. I guess some change is good right?

Having recently mentioned my encounter with the twilight zone this past weekend reminds me to mention that I'm also going home this weekend. It was my parents' twentieth wedding anniversary this past Wednesday, August 3. Isn't that exciting?! I find it to be exciting. In 5 years, knowing how big on grand shindigs my mom and I are, I'm probably going to want to plan something big for them. Either a renewal of vows for their 25th wedding anniversary, or something to that extent. Well, maybe it wouldn't be to that extent because I'm sure it would be expensive to get married again. So we'll just have to see. I'll be 24, and Czierhl will have just turned 21! OH MY GOOOOOSH!! That's exciting!! But it kinda makes me feel old thinking that my sister, at that time, would be of legal age to drink and whatnot. In any case, Czierhl is good at being creative, and I've gotten good at carrying out large tasks, so I think whatever happens will be wonderful! My parents do deserve the best. WEEE!!!

Special congratulations to, Czierhl, for having finally gotten her pretty little iPod. It was of course, her birthday gift, not soley from my parents, but from herself as well. I am proud of her for having saved enough money (unlike me who likes to spend the extra if I can), and resisting her temptations to follow in with the ultra-latest fashions for our age. Don't get my wrong, she is still ad Diva and a Thuper Thtar, but knowing both our pasts, it is a great accomplishment knowing that she saved a good amount of money--enough money that my parents didn't have to squeeze too much out of their wallets, which I am even more impressed with. It's a wonderful thing, growing up. I think in that sense, now that I have more responsibilities, I have yet to do more learning. But I am learning, let me tell ya. Having all these other expenses to live in an apartment, feeding myself, and working is making better realize the worth of a cent. Which is a really good thing. I'm trying to resist the will to splurge on making everything pretty, even though in some areas I'm failing horribly. Like with the apartment. But I think as soon as everything is decorated and done, I won't be spending as much money on it. I'm mostly buying stuff for my room, and any extra stuff for the living room, which has yet to be furnished.

Living with my roommates this coming year is going to be so fun! Although I wish I were with all of Sierra again, especially my beloved 20101 BroSis and my homies of 202, next year won't be a sorrowful year. It's going to be fun and exciting, and full of wonderful, normal 201 shocker happiness. hahah I sound all giddy, but I guess I am. And we'd have so many auxilliary roommates, always over to see one or all of us because of how close everyone is. For example, Bubby and Morris. They are two of us gals' boyfriends. And of course, we gals wanna see them! And then there's wife my association (I am wife my default), Corey Chi for Roomy Wife Kay. Then there would be the occasional Raymond for Sabiy when he's in SoCal, and Harry because he's Morris' roommate. I hope there would be my Sexy Rexy because he's commuting. And SO MANY other people, not just Sierrans that might come floating around, like maybe the bros and/or Roderick and Esteban, and the wondaful new SPs for the coming school year who don't live too far away. Although the Cottage people have there own place, I hope that they would come visit since they are the closest to us, besides Morris, Harry and James. Chris Davis already has. And Bonny and Ana, along with their really cool roomies, and Soap Buddy and Girlfriend, be she not at Newport North :P, would be the second closest along with Quadruplet and Ria who are at Stanford Court and VDC. AHH!!! I"m excited!!! Can you tell? I love it... I LOVE YOU! heheheheheh

...more to come...

Tribute to the Trio
My Hectic Life (sometimes)
Love for Target and IKEA
Bringing It ALL to a New Home
The Lack of Tagging on the TagBoard...

Stay tuned!! MMMUAH!!!

I'm hungry...

2005-08-04T10:06:00.000-07:00

Ok. So I'm at work right now, and I'm hungry. HAHAH! I didn't get to stop by Diedrich's this morning to get my bagel that I usually get every Tuesday and Thursday morning before work. WHY?! Because I missed the bus. HAHAHAH! Well... I missed one of my buses that I have to take to go to work. DANGIT! SO! I had to walk a part of the way. That sucked. Well, not really. I actually like walking, but it was early, and I was cold. ahahah

OK SO DUDE! My apartment has a major ant problem. AND IT SUCKS! And then dude! I woke up next to a trail this morning. They eft me perfectly alone and didn't touch me, but the freaking trail was at the edge of my bed! THAT WAS SICK!!!! Ok. So then I got up and followed the trail. And they had attacked a box of Gold Fish crackers that was left in my room by one of my roommates. EW IT WAS GROSS!!! So, I threw the box outside. And I didn't have time to clean up the trail, especially since it was on my bed. But I didn't want to be late to work, so i showered and jetted out. Hopefully, the ants just went away because there was no more food. If not, I just want a vacuum, so that I can vacuum them up, especially since they are on my bed and I don't wanna use any spray. I seriously need to patch up any holes where they could be coming from. DANGIT! I HATE ANTS! No seriously, I hate ants. hahaha Ew thinking about the ants is giving me goosbumps . I need to talk about something else. hahah

Alright. So at work, I'm calling a whole bunch of waste management branches in the Central Eastern Time. And I don't really wanna talk about that; I just wanted to stop talking about the ants HAHAHAHHAHAHAHA! No serious. I'm really bored. I think I might take an early lunch, and buy extra, so that I can eat it later. WOOT! I'm going to eat Subway today and get me some seafood & crab (my usual)... and it doesn't worryme to be breaking out in hives from my allergies cuz its fake! WOO! I LOVE IMMITATION CRAB! Sometimes I think it tastes better than real crab. I love real crab when I eat it with my tiltilan: vinegar and bagoong salted shrimp fry . hahaha I am so Filipino.

hmmm.... I still need to fix my class schedule for the fall quarter. I need to get on that. DANG! I need to pay the rent again soon. WOO! DAMN! Living is like expensive. I know I said that weird, but I said what I said. ahahah

Ohhhh.. I miss my Trio. I can't waitto see them this weekend. Oh my gaaash! My Ultimatest Date is leaving for Italy soon!!! What am I going to do without my Ultimatest for a whole school term. The thought kinda makes me sad :( :( :( At least Dawddah and I will be able to keep each other company since she'll be at Fullerton/Cerritos. :D That thought makes me happy :D :D :D

Dude this entry is getting really long. I kinda want to redo my blog. But I don't have time for that yet. Shoot I have to read Nickel and Dimed still for school. Pft. I don't wanna read. It's ok though. It's only a thin book. I haven't read anything good for my brain in a while. Whew....

Alright. I'm out until maybe later... hahahaha Later days! MUAH!

another long day...

2005-07-15T14:02:00.000-07:00

So once again, I'm here at work, and I'm trying to keep distracted. And what do I do? I blog! WEE!

hahaha... So today was yet another long day. I woke up really early and got ready for school, but then! I didn't need to wake up that early because Auntie El endedup coming over, instead of me going there. So I went back to sleep. Then we left to drop of Elijah to Kuya Ernel, but since he had an appointment in Irvine, he took me to school instead. There was TRAAAFFIC yo! Alotta construction is going on, yo! Ok... so I got to school at a good time, not too early, but just on time. Ok... so I don't really talk to anyone in my class, BUT! I think I shall make a friend. The dude who alwyas sits next to me seems like an amiable guy, and he asked me about something for the class, so we shall be bio buddies from now on... ok that was me going on a little tangent because I'm starting to go crazy with boredom here at work. But hey! It pays well... so what can I do, right? Ok... so bio went by slowly, but ended early, which is good! WOO! So I got some stuff done, and then just chilled at UTC for a while. I was supposed to have a picnic with Bub, but plans fell through. But that's ok! You know why?! Because I'm meeting with the ROOMIES tonight at my house! YAY! They're coming over to discuss stuff about he apartment and other such stuff. And then! They might sleep over because Atching Lei and Kuya Barth are going to a reunion up north and I'm alone dude.

OK! SO! TODAY!!! I have to DRIIIIVE!!! NOOOOOO!!! But that's a long story man... You can ask me about that if you really wanna know. Alright. I'm getting bored with this, and I'm getting distracted from work. So I'm going to stop now. I'm sure I'll be blogging again on Monday. Keep posted. MUAH!! WEEE! :D

like whoa...

2005-07-14T14:28:00.000-07:00

so0o0o0... it's been a really long time since i've blogged and well... i think it's time i do so... why?! well, not only because it's obviously been a long time, but because i'm BORED!!!!!

i am here at work making my calls, and as a diversion, i need to do something... my something is go online because i work at a computer...

i did the whole being a myspace freak, but for now, i'm kinda sick of it. i did the whole play on facebook thing, but i've gotten sick of that too. i as gonna go on AIM express, but that will distract me too much, and no one is ever really online, or if they're online they're not actually at the computer... so what's the point in that. so alas, i have returned to my former hobby, and i am blogging again.

now for those of you who used to read my blog entries, be they on myspace or elsewhere, you know that my entries have the tendency to be long. well, since i'm bored, of course they're gonna be long. that should make my Dawddah Offpsring very happy because she always needs soemething to read online... hehehe... and for as long as Czierhl isn't in school... this might keep her occupied, instead of the three girls hoggin the computer (well mostly the oldest one).

so what happened today... well nothing really... woooooo!!! i almost woke up late this morning. usually atching lei comes into my room and i wake up from the sound of the door opening, but this morning, i woke up on my own.. it's like my body knew what time it was... crazy stuff! i woke up in my dream, so that made me wake up in real life. so then i looked at the clock. it was time to get up, and i got ready to start my day! woo!

so0o0... i was sitting at Deidrich's this morning (like i do every tuesday and thrusday) and it was so cute... ok so there was this relatively not so young lady maybe in her middle ages... and she was there by her lonesome, until this dude came. it was a blind date for old people! it was really cute. it looked like they really hit it off... and i was there like a loser just watching them... then i made my way to work... as usual, i was about 15 minutes early. and i've just been making my calls and chatting it up with Sonica my co-worker... she's tight.. really a down to earth kinda gal. hoh man..i dont go home for another three hours!... so anyway... for lunch Sonica and I went to Subway for lunch. there lotsa people after we came. thank goodness it was after. WOO! hahah and now we're back... making our calls.. haha story of our lives...

let's see... has anything exciting happened to me recently? OH YEA!!! ok... so saturday was a fun day! hahaha in the morning it was ben ben's lolo and lola's service, then BFFM was there, and yea.... i went with The Davids... hahah and then BFFM and I headed out to the Bradley International where the daddy's were leaving for that Tour de France self-guided tour. there was fun times at the airport with the group. then when the daddies left, the rest of us went to del amo mall for shopping... and boy did i go shopping! ahah i got alotta cute stuff for me and my sister.. good stuff... then after mucho shopping, we all went out to eat at Seafood Port in Torrance... it was good.. then we all went home. let me just say, we played some good games of telephone and the BFFA and BFFM rock my socks!!!

ok.. so then sunday was fun too!!!! alright so in the morning was church of course. then there was lunching, and homeworking, then waiting... waiting for the Trio to arrive to come get me so we can celebrate my birthday. so they finally came.. at the time that Ultimatest Date predicted of course.... haha and then we ate at Maki Maki's at the Irvine Spectrum Center. that was goooood.. then we chilled there for like the longest time. then we went shopping.. and i bought more stuff.. hahah czierhly's bday gift is on its way.. weee! hahahaha and then we went back to my house where Ultimatest just kept knocking out... so Dawddah and I just chit chatted away. and it was fun trying to wake up Ultimatest... she is like the hardest person to wake up dude... but that was fun nonetheless... oh yea! the gifts! so they showered me with "nonesenses" which i asked for... but those where NOT " nonesenses"! they were sooo nice! and i looooooved the gifts! my newest baby is Gualest.. and she is the cutest thing ever! ahahaha she's pimping that hula gear! hahahaha i love the padded coconuts guys! hahahahaha

so they left.. and the next day was school.. hahaha i went to payless with atchie after, and bought summore of Czierhl's bday gift... ahahah and then i went home.. woo! hahaha

ok.. so tuesday.. work all day long.. and then! OH MY GOSH!! so twin picked me up and i watched Wicked... that was my first musical every and it was so wonderful!!!!!!! i like couldn't breathe!!!! it was sooo gooood!!! hoh gosh!!! i liike.. wouldnt even mind seeing it again dude! soooo gooooood!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!

so wednesday... yesterday... i went to school.. met up with bub for lunch, then we met krystle, ceci, john ko, and foongy at lee's.. then i went to work, went home.. and knocked out dude! i was gooooonnneee... but then! i woke up and helped atching lei pick out clothes for her reunion... that was fun.. i just invoked czierhl's fashion sense in me hahaha then i knocked out again!! i tried talking to bub on the phone but that didn't work... so we just played phone tag... hahaha.. and then today was today... i already talked about my day.... :D

so i have no idea what i want to talk to about! hahahaha... i'm really sleeping.. even though i've been knocking out early... istill haven't been getting good nights sleep.. its been really light that i wake up every ten minutes or so.. or too heavey that it makes me not feel so well in the morning... so i duno... i guess i feel really drained. and time is moving by tooooo slowly dangit. i cant sit down anymore dudes.. i just wanna sleep hahaha.. lay day and sleep... i stretch like between every call! hahhaha hooh maan. alright.. i think it's time for the end of this..

oh!! good think that happened to me today.. i heard from Sexy Rexy!!! that was niiice.. oh how mi miss my roomies so... its good that i'll be living with two of the roomies.. dammit rex! hahaha just keeeding... i laaav THE ROOMIES! GOOOOOO ROOMIES!

YEAYUH!!!

2005-05-12T23:15:00.000-07:00

Everything is just so great!! I LOVE IT ALL!!!!!!! hahahahaha hoooooooohhhhh maaaaan!!! i miss everybody.. this is going to be a busy.. yet fun summer! WOOOOOOT!!!!!!

alright. that is all.. time go to play with the suite.. I LOVE SUITE OUTTINGS!

OOOOKAAAY!!!!

2005-05-04T21:24:00.000-07:00

ENOUGH IS ENOUGH!!!! DUUUUUDE!!! Some people just don't know how to leave other people alone. I mean DAMN!!! Get over it already! Yea sure... things aren't going your way, but all this drama you are creating for yourself is making everyone HATE YOU! If they don't already hate you, you definitely IRK THE SHIT OUT OF THEM!

Okay. So maybe I'm being a little harsh. But it's always the same damn thing over and over and over again. GOODNESS! JUST SHUT UP! All this lovey dovey shit that you're putting out there just makes you look desperate. So first me, and now SOMEONE CLOSE TO ME?! I know we're hot and all, but FUCK THAT!! WE'RE SOOOOOOO TAKEN!!!! Our hearts don't even remotely begin to belong to you. TRUST!

I know this is sad to say, and you probably don't even read this blog anymore, but hell... I do wish you read this one. You always say that you never want things to change. YOU ALWAYS SAY THAT! But if you don't shut the fuck up about it, of freaking COURSE the relationship is going to change no matter what?! YOU BUG EVERYONE! DUUHHHH! How is it that people are still talking to you? It's because they are TOO DAMN NICE. Dang... So glad that I got the fuck away from you--never have to see you again, never have to look at your sorry ass face, never have to hear your damn annoying voice. I used to just try and be nice to you--I just avoided you to avoid being a bitch to you. But when you cause drama in the lives of those that I love... OH HELL NO! IT'S OVER BITCH!

Now... You've known me for quite a while. You know how I am. You know when it comes to shit like this, I back up my word. So take my advice. Leave my loved one alone (and you know who I'm talking about, you psychopath), or I will be forced to gather those that love this one the most and make your life a living hell.

... and now a sidenote...
Ok... So I think I've come off a little strong to those of you who have never seen this side of me. Just a warning to whomever. Leave those that I love alone. OK? Good. And I always keep my word... Really... I'm not like this. However when push comes to shove, I can't just sit back and let shit happen... Not to those I care about... I'm really a nice person. I really am! I am only a concerned citizen in this sane society that tries to protect those that we love. OK? GOT IT? Good.

Now to those others that I love. I LOVE YOU!! And I probably seem like the biggest psycho of life, but those of you who know me, know me... and love me... and that is ALL THAT MATTERS!

Dawddah... Ultimatest... I love you! I'm coming home this weekend.

Skankstas... We need a playdate!

BFFs... DANG MAN!!! When are we freaking going to see each other.

Sierra! We still have 5 weeks left. Let's make the best of it.

and... GO B FRESH!! I MEEESS YOU FAMILY!

All those others that don't take on a weird cultish name: I love you, too!!! WOOOOO HOOOO!

I think I'm tired...

2005-04-11T22:38:00.000-07:00

yea... I tooootally had this one really long entry.. and it tooootally got erased!

EF THAT MAN!!!

Til I'm in the mood to blog again..

<3, czareine...<-- haha why did I do that?

awwww!!!

2005-04-11T11:55:00.000-07:00

So I don't have class today until 1:00pm. Therefore, I decided to blog hop, and I came across quizzes. And I took a couple myself. And this one is SOOOOO CUUUUTE!

Your Love Style is Agape

You are a caring, kind, and selfless partner.
Unsurprisingly, your love style is the most rare.
You are willing to sacrfice your world for your sweetie.
Except it doesn't really feel like sacrifice to you.
For you, nothing feels better than giving to the one you love.

What's Your Love Style?

girl power!

2005-03-27T19:06:00.000-08:00

soooo this is czareine's dawddah blogging. i feel that she doesnt blog enough. dont u? i think everyone agrees/should agree. but anyhoooo, so my muddah is finally back in my life. its been like ages since i've talked to her. but all is well now... i have my best friend back. everyone say awwwwww. oh tear. i'm tearing. ahahhahaha. but seriously, i'm super happy we're tizzalking again. you know?! you know?!

ok so i'm watching the spice girls once again. i wish i had a british accent. too bad muddah doesnt have one... otherwise it would be passed onto me. whore. hahah jk. oh muddah, how i love thee. but not really because you're abandoning me for the boonies. what kind of mother leaves their daughter to pull out weeds and plant trees and apples?! who does that?! thanks for leaving me! and not going to my birthday shindig! >=O

hehnehway, i mees my muddah. i havent seen her since like... last year. we neeeeeed to get hena's belated belated BELATED birthday gift... but alas, neither of us drive. who wants to give me and muddah a ride somewhere. but you gotta be at least 18! puahahahahah. oh secrets, i love them. except when they're being kept from me lol

okkkk i have nothing else to saaaay. soooo peace out yo! palabra a tu mama! :]

i love you muddah! fa shooooooooo!

another entry to Dawddah

2005-03-27T02:39:00.000-08:00

Muddah: is it long?

Dawddah: uhh
Dawddah: that took like...
Dawddah: 3-4 minutes to read
Dawddah: including interruptions

Muddah: shutup!!!

Dawddah: i swearrrrrrr!
Dawddah: ok now u have to blog more

++There are you happy now, Dawddah?

it's been forever... be prepared... it's LONG!!

2005-03-27T02:29:00.000-08:00

March 25, 2005 Midnight
Alright. So dizzang! I haven't updated things thing-a-ma-bobber in the longest time -- for like ever and a half! hahaha I think it's because:

1.) I don't have a computer at the dorm. I just simply (or rather not so simply) use my roommate wife's, or head over to the Mesa Court community Center Computer Labs and use those facilities to get schoolwork done.
2.) School has been punching me down and kicking my ass. And that's all aspects of anything that has to do with my school life.

In essence, that means no time for playtime on the computer. But mainly, there's just been a lot of drama happening this quarter. In any other situation, as in that past, I would simply take advantage of the blog and vent all the shit harnessing itself in me and blog it all out. However, there's just more stuff that I may not want the general public to know, past those that I tell by word of mouth. And if you know me, I can be quite the over-sharer.

So this has got to be big shit, doesn't it? And you may be thinking, "why don't you just sensor yourself?" Well, if you've ever read any of my xanga entries or blog entries in the past, you know that I lack the capability of stopping my fingers from typing my thoughts, considering that most of my entries are usually days long. Well not really... I exaggerate, but you know what I mean... or at least I hope you do.

"Why has she finally decided to update?" you may be asking yourself. Well the answer is simple. I was talking to BFFA, and she told me go read her xanga, and it completely AMAZED ME! For a number of reasons, and let me share why.

1.) She hasn't updated in the longest time as well, but her time intervals have the tendency to be shorter than mine.
2.) BFFA wrote some deep ass shit, and she simply inspires me. Oh how I love my BFFA so...
3.) And way more simply, (which really isn't too much a result of the amazement) I'm bored and wide awake. So, I figure this is a good way to kill time.

++March 27, 2005 1:11am
Ok... so last night two nights ago I didn't really finish it! hahahah I ended up on the phone fixing up some of that drama which I had so previously been talking about... HAHAH! That was SUCH a coinkidink! hahhaha And right off the bat, I would like to thank my BFF Drew a.k.a IWMOP for having helped so much that night. You are SOOO WONDERFUL BEST FRIEND! So as for some of this drama, relationships have been mended, which I am SOOOO grateful for. I was going nuts for a while I tell you, NUTS! Once again I feel at ease being able to use those wacky nicknames which I've always used, the usual subjects are still talked about, and it just feels great! OH HOW HAPPY I AM! :-D

Let's see... as for other things. There's still drama in other places, of course. It's the story of my life! What can I expect? I definitely wouldn't expect my life to be the least calm that for sure. I've been quite tired these days. I've been pushing myself into a lot of activty, so as to distract myself from the not so pleasant. I'm in UCI's PCN hosted by Kababayan everyone! YOU ALL BETTER GO! It's on April 30th at the Bren Events Center at UCI. It's going to be good! I'm in three of 5 dances for my suite! YAY! However, the sad thing about that is that I have to miss Mesa Court Spring Formal. HOW SAD IS THAT?!?! If you know me, you know that I love going to functions like these! And I'm missing it! And it's tradition that everyone from Sierra goes. AND I WANNA DANCE AND GET ALL DRESSED UP!! hahahaha... But no really, it makes me sad. But what can I do? It's not like I'm going to back out of PCN. All the hard work just to back out?! I DON'T THINK SO!

And while we're talking about PCN taking over my life. I also have to miss the hall snowboarding trip. DANGIT!!! I really wanted to go! And it's MAMA's first time seeing snow?! I wanted to experience that DANGIT! But that's the weekend of the first Saturday Practice, and the Maria Clara retreat. If I don't go to Saturday practice I can't do PCN, so that sucks, too!

DANGIT! I just hate how everything conflicts with everything else lately. Like this coming week I'm going on Alternative Spring Breakaway up north in Arcata (it's a volunteer program for spring break), and I won't be back in SoCal until this coming Saturday. BUT! Saturday is Dawdddah's birthday! DANGIT! My little girl is all grown up and 18 now! OH HOW TIMES FLIIIIES! But I really wanted to go to Dawddah's thing. Because of the drama I made other plans, and now there's no more drama, but there are still those other plans! RAWR!!! SEE! Everything conflicts these days!

Hmmm... I just had a thought. Well I didn't just have it. I've been thinking it for a while, then ignoring it. But it always comes back. Don't you hate feeling ugly, or fat, that you're not good enough, or that you can't be yourself?! Well, I definitely do. I hate feeling that I'm not pretty enough! I hate hearing that I've gotten fat. I hate hearing that I'm not good enough, or that I don't look good, or how did my hair or makeup wasn't good enough! WHO THE HELL WANTS TO HEAR THAT?! If you do you've got to be crazy! Do people who say that stuff seriously think it's going to help you?! Do they seriously think that it's going to make you change they way you are?! Do they seriously think that it's going to affect your life for the better?! If they do, THEY'RE CRAZY! They are seriously crazy! And I hate how some of those bringing down your self-esteem are with whom you are sooooo close!! (or at least supposed to be...)

But with the bad ALWAYS comes the good. Or at least I hope that. With the feeling of self-hate, I love how there are always those others... those other that tell you the contrary. I LOVE THEM! I love it when I get those subtle compliments, be them from my boyfriend, my hallmates, my close friends, other family. Don't get me wrong. I love getting dressed up, and taking care of myself, and getting all gussied up. But I can't do that on a regular basis. Maybe I'm not the best dressed, or into the latest fashion. BUT THAT'S NOT ME! AND THAT DOESN'T MAKE ANYONE BETTER THAN ME! And hearing that SUCKS! IT SUCKS! It doesn't make me want to get more dressed up. It makes me feel like crap, and with that I don't take care of myself. I mean, maybe I don't look for the same fashion when I go shopping. EXCUSE ME! I DO know how to shop! I can dress very well! EXTREMELY WELL! I dress to fit ME! NOT YOU! ME! And have you evef considered other circumstances? My body is shaped extremely strangely, I don't fit half the thing... NO NOT HALF! A MAJORITY of the clothes that come out! I'm thicker but I'm short! I can't get size smalls with out things being long. I can't get size mediums without things being even longer! WHAT DO YOU EXPECT ME TO DO?! I'm tired of it! You hear me say it all the time, but sometimes I wonder if you're really listening. I try to tell you things, but you don't listen. I hate talking to you to only hear everything that is wrong with me. And you wonder why I don't call? OF COURSE I DON'T CALL!!! WOULD YOU?!

ARGH! See now I'm going to far. This is why I hate blogging sometimes... because I get way too into it. But I'm not going to erase it either. I feel like if I erase it, it's never going to get said. But I seriously hope you don't read it all at the same time. I just wish we got along. I mean get along like the people on the outside think we do. It sucks! We've only got each other and we're like this?! THAT'S SAD! SO SAD! I think it's that we are sooo different, and after 15 years, we still haven't learned to agree to disagree. You want it your way and I want it mine. We don't respect each other. We highly care for each other and love each other, but we don't like each other. How the hell does that work? It really doesn't, if you haven't noticed. We used to be friends, and now it feels like we're not. I mean we share the same friends, but that SO doesn't mean we are. HOW SAD IS THAT!? If anything, you're supposed to be my best friend. I'm going to stop here with this. It's getting too much. If you feel embarrassed, don't. No one knows who it is, and I'm not going to tell anyone. You think that I have, and that I do, but I don't. Those are your assumptions, and you never give me the chance to speak. So this isn't all my fault. Our relationship is OUR fault.

OK OK OK! On a lighter note. I am generally happy. I have a boyfriend everyone! Ok, so I tried keep it on the DL, but that didn't work! Family learned, friends learned, so why keep a big secret anymore. It's kinda those, "If you don't talk about it, I won't either" kinda situations with some people though. AHH! It's kinda scary. But good! He's GREAT! He's good to me. He's AWESOME to me. He respects me, and listens to me, and think I'm beautiful. And SO MUCH MORE! And to me, that is enough. He and all his imperfections are PERFECT! Ok... enough for being all sappy.

I LOVE SIERRA! I LOVE THE BFFS! I LOVE MY DAWDDAH OFFSPRING AND ULTIMATEST DATE! I LOVE THE SKANKSTA! I LOVE MY MC CREW! I LOVE MY B. FRESH FAM! I LOVE BOYFRIEND!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAWDDAH OFFSPRING! YOU'RE OLD!!! I LOVE YOU and wish I could make it to your birthday! We have to finish planning Ultimatest's gift! YAY! I'm excited about that!!!

are you happy dawddah?! I updated and I'm FINISHED! hahaha I LAAAV IT!!

all smiles

2004-11-14T13:35:00.000-08:00

SOOOOO.... these past two week have been good!!! they just have...

i've seen The Incredibles like thrice! SOOO WORTH IT!!! i've like freaking memorized half or most of the movie.. golly geez i'm a loser.. hahahhah

bought some Rainbow Sandals at the factory store in San Clemente.. and WOWEE! I LAAAV THEM!! there's been bonding.. resting.. stressing.. just all kinda of goodness..

Ultimatest came to Irvine on Friday and slept over.. and she even brought me a surprise! MY DAWDDAH OFFSPRING.. oh how i.. her muddah parent loves her soo.. haha i hadn't seen her since like.. september 10ish.. yea.. since then because it was their welcome day.. and i remember czelly welly didn't go to San Francisco that one day because of the IH Welcome Dance.. so yea... Ultimatest and Offspring make me laugh soo.. it's great.. hahha fun to know that Dawddah and i have the same taste in men... hahahah liking your list offspring! hoh.. me so glad that those two slept over.. not Main Lil Sis czelly belly and Lil Sis Cha have yet to stay over one day.. it would be FUN FUN SILLY WILL! alright I'm done hahhaha........ hahhaahahahahaha man, I'm kinda hyper.. can you tell?!

Friday also... the three of us also saw Claudius and Lisa, and WENDOLLY CAME!!!! hahahaha HOH MAN!! she is SOOOOOO FREAKING FUNNY!!!!! hahahahahahah yea.. we stayed up for a while talking to her.. that was great... hoh .. i can't wait for her to visit again.. Ultimatest and I are making it a point to go see her at USD.......

what else? what else? OH! drama in one aspect of my life is starting to subside.. while in another facet of my existence.. there is yet some drama araising.. and beginning to take over my life... HOH MAN!

let's see... let's see.. I know there's more.. hmm hmm hmmmmph...... the Rigodon is coming! CRAZY STUFF!!!! i hope my group does well.. I haven't gone to all the practices.. but I'm still pretty good.. so that's good.. BUT! because of the dancr rehearsal I have to miss our Sierra Thanksgiving Dinner.. HOH .. yet another tradition that I am missing out on.. makes me sad... but I've got my prior obligations.. and then Induction Ball the Saturday after Thanksgiving... WEEE!!! I GET TO GET DRESSED UP!!! I LAAAAV IT!!! hahahahah

hmm hmmmmmmm.. HOH!!! OUR BROTHER SISTER OUTTING!!! OH EM GEE!!! IT WAS THE FREAKING BEST!!!!! Food.. Games.. "The Spot"! what more could a sister ask for! HOH MAN!!! 201 GREATLY thanks our 101 Bros.. the bestestestestest bros EVER! :-D

OO OO!!! I wanna do PCN.. :-D Maria Clara specifically :-P..... PCN sounds like so much fun! HAYAH! AND! I have yet to meet my Bakit Fresh Kasama Family... haha I met a kuya.. and I kinda talked to an ate on the phone... *sigh* I hope to mee them soon... :-P

random thinking: I wanna get a second set of piercings on my ears.. and hpoefully.. if i have the will power to lose weight.. I shall get my belly button pierced... hmm.. I think I should make that a sister outting and bring Czelly.. because she would look sexaaay with a naval piercing! hahah man.. what kinda influence and I?! haha and oh she wants her cartilage pierced.. I should take her to get that pierced.. I don't giver her enough attention.. this would be a good time to bond

more randomness: So Daddy let me drive the Pathfinder last night on the way home from Uncle Gel's for his birthday party.. it was fun! he didn't freak out.. it was great.. when am I getting my license.. I'm thinking in December during my break BECAUSE! it is one long break.. hahha woot! and besides.. I think it's about time I get my license..... I owe my drivers... I'm supposed to be Ultimatest', Atsing Fle Rye's, and Atsing Sensei's bitch.. AND! I'm going to need to be driving so that I can visit my Ultimatest after her surgery! HOH BUSY BREAK!

AWW!!! even mor randomness: at this very moment, as I type, I am currently listening to "Weak" by SWV

alright.. this has kinda been a long blog post.... Rigodon practice later.. then backt to Sierra

later days!
<3, czareine

p.s. Czelly looks so sexaaaay with her newly, self-cut hair.. she did a really good job! AND! she has straight hair again! oh how sexaaay she is... *sigh* she's sexaayier. while (inside joke) i'm about to deliver my twins Czareine, Jr. and Baby Jacob.. hahah

WEEEEE!!!!! almost

2004-10-30T23:30:00.000-07:00

muahahah.. well as you can read.. i am in a relatively good mood.. i spent the4 ENTIRE day int he living room.. specifically on the couch... muahaha.. BUT!!!! i did get to finish my laundry!!! BUT! my room got worse.... heheheh =X..... AND SOON!! it's gonna be playtime with the suitemates! some HALLOWEEN FUN! hahahahahhah

so i was talking to BFFA.. AND! there are so many of my dude hallmates on her jock! haha cuz she's so fucking HOT! yea BFFA.. you know you're hot.. don't even try to deny it love.. hahaha I LAAV SIERRA! alright.. enough of that

i'm about to eat some Jack in the Crack! YAY! some good good stuff.. and ahora i am muching on some gushers... gooooood stuffffff.. damn i'm gonna be a fatty mc fat fat... i'm not gonna gain tghe freshman 15... i'ma hit the freshman 50! hahahahahha HOH MAN!

alrite... so i hada goood goooooood talk with my ultimatest in the wee hours of the past morning.. and damn.. i have such a different perspective on some shit.. it toooootally makes me wanna go cry a fucking river and flash flood LA from here.. this really sucks shit! NO JOKE! this is all so stupid! how did it get this bad!?!? i never thought that it would get this bad.. but alas it has.. never in a million years did i expect to have lost someone so close to me.. EVER... THIS SUCKS SO BAD!!!! no matter how good you think life is.. something is always FUCKED UP!

uh huh

2004-10-30T03:48:00.000-07:00

so here i am still in Irvine. This is the first weekend that i am here for real for real. Kinda strange... but no so much all at the same time.

I am sick which sucks.. but THATS OK! and i fcuked up my knee again! but THAT is ok... hahaha falling down the stairs = not cool at all hahahaha so i'm limping around....

hmph.. things to do:

1. mail something to czelly-welly-belly
2. do my laundry cuz ima running outta clothes
3. clean my room because it's starting to remind me of how my room used to look in LA.. hahahah
4. catch up on ALOTTA shit

whew.. ngeh.. i can do it...

hmm.. tonight.. a bunch of us in the hall are having us a sleepover in the living room... fun fun silly willy! hahaha

and ahora (now) .. i am spoking to my ULTIMATEST DATE! oh how i miss her so... *sigh* there is also someone else i miss.. but this person i am so sure hates me... and resents me and my entire being... makes me sad and i duno what to do to change that.. i'm SUCH a BIG BITCH! golly-gee-willakers... of all things to fuck up..... oh Lordy..... i'm gonna go cry later.. i havent in a while.. and times callf or it...

alriiiiight.. this was absolutely pointless.. but i thought i'd post ne way.. haha :-D

<3 ya! C ya! MUAH!

updating finally...

2004-10-23T17:09:00.000-07:00

alright.. well i haven't been blogging much... like.. at all.. haha i haven't really been online either... i like go online in the middle of the day when no one else is online.. so thats pointless isn't it.. hahaha

well let's see... i'm about to enter into my fifth week of school (my sixth week living in irvine).. and I LAAAAV IT!!!! it's tooootally awesoooome!!! there are only a few things that REALLY bug the crap outta me.. but other than that.. all is gravy!

i LOOVE everything.. and "i'm bored" - czierhl... yea. she's right next to me.. and she sed that right as i was about to type it.. cuz i'm at home.. and i'm really sleepy. and i'm bored because i duno what to do..

it's weird being in LA.. because it's like home.. but like.. i don't live live here.. ya kno?! weird stuff.. i'm a visitor when i come... straaange feeling. HOH MAN!

ok waaaiiit! back to talking about Sierra because i have not blogged since i moved to irvine.. well yea as i was saying.. HOH MAN! i have THE bestest roomy EVER! i have THE bestest suitemates EVER! i've got THE bestest SP EVER! our suite has THE bestest bros EVER especially mine :-D !!!! i live in THE greatest hall to EVER exist with the GREATEST people! *sigh* can you tell i'm liking where i'm living?!?! hahaha there's another great somethings.. but i like to keep some things to myself even though you can't really do that in our hall... ok so more about the hall.. well i am officially deprived of sleep.. i usually sleep at about 4 to 4:30.. AM that is.. and have several of my dormates wake me up at 7 every other day... we stay up all night doing absolutely nothing.. well no thats a lie.... the guys usually play their super mario brothers while i watch in amazement and jealousy because i can't play video games for JACK! and at the same time i play with hair hahahah all the while.. harry is playing the guitar and freestyling as best he could with the funniest rhymes possible.. usually the "king foong and his 102 whorahs " are busy depriving each other of sleep.. and there are always people running around. never really a quiet moment in the hall.. and when it is quiet.. it is the weirdest thing... its the loudest silence.. OH! there's also Sierra class which i dont really mind at all.. i think its fun.. its bonding with the ENTIRE hall for like two hours.. instead of just a few of us in the living room or kitchen sometimes ya kno?! many of us spend our time trying to avoid studying .. or just the exact opposite--trying to get away from all the ruckus... we like to imitate each others laff.. we hold improv talent shows and dance practices in the kitchen. others spend their time sparring and doing cheerleading stunts and trying to break--also in the kitchen.. there are farting contest and volleyball soccer... it's always quite exciting to be in Sierra.. i think thats why alot of us don't sleep.. because something is always happening... hoh man...

my classes are going well i guess.. school has always been school for me.. not much more than that.. ngeh ngeh ngeh.. i think i need to start working harder though.... i can't act like i did when i was in high school... *sigh* getting to class is a whold other story... HOH MAN!! it take forever!!! doo-hoode! everything is so far!!!!! hahahaha but thats ok.. i need the exercise..
hoh man.. there is so much to say. but i dont wanna type it all out.. hahah i'm lazy and rarely use a computer so i guess i've gotten used to not typing so much.. like. this.. all this.. its a lot already...

but oh how i miss LA.. i miss being a lazy lil hyper thing in high school.. i miss the old group.. i miss my old closest friends... i miss the BFFs.. i got to see BFF Tee Tee yesterday.. that was niiice.. got some good talking in... i miss living like 5 minutes away from my ultimatest... i love being able to call up guava at all hours of the nite not fearing that she is too busy to talk because of work, school, apps, and other such busy person things.. i miss being able just call up any of my BFFs and being able to stay on the fone for hours at a time without worrying about my minutes running out.. but now all i have is a cell.. so i can't afford to run outta minutes... i miss just chilling out with my family watching jeopardy and wheel of fortune every weekeday starting at 7pm... i miss home cooked food and the massive amounts of rice i used to eat. i miss seeing the girls every single weekend (instead of coming home some weekends to sleep and go to the various dance practices).... *sigh* there are a lot of things changing.. but hey.. what can you do.. roll with the punches i guess.. take in the good and the bad.. what choice have we? things cant stay the same forever...

dearest muddah --

2004-09-20T01:08:00.000-07:00

so i don't even know when you're gonna read this because well... you're at irvine right now and i don't even know if you have the internet working over therrre or if you're even gonna have time to go online. anyhow, its about 1am and i'm not quite done with school biznass. i have a feeling you're chillin like a villain with your other anteaters right now... either that or you're sleeping. OR! you could be looking for the "daddeh" look alike! :) ok but anyway, hopefully i see u this weekend or sometime soon. i laaaav n meees u already muddah! muddaaah fuuhhkaaah! adngbaiygbagljgbub! pee-ess: thank u for calling and advice-ing. u rock dude! for serious

-- ur dawddah :)

jaykay muddah -- jaykay

2004-09-17T12:34:00.000-07:00

i was using yellow but it didnt show up... so turquoise it is! colors make me :) hahhahh! but i was jaykay-ing. i takes its backs. no farewell. but nehoos, ur on your away... packing? i doubt it. i bet you're doing something else. ie: singing, munchin on somethin, watching tv, etc etc. hahah. but yaaaaay! i get to see u and cousin today! thats super! but the whole dancing thing aint! i told u i dont know how! psshhh! u never listen to ur dawddah :( joke joke joke! hahahahahh! ok i have to clean my room! a plus tard (see ya laytah)

ps/help me find a senior quote! pleeease!

pps/go heart go! we are the pandas, the mighty mighty pandas! hahahahahhahahah jk? maybe not. looool

ouchiiiee

2004-09-17T11:17:00.000-07:00

oh dawddah.. y must you hurt my heart sooo.. y are you attacking your sis and me.. and Y DID U USE OUR NAMES?!?! SOOO FRAAACKING WEIRD!!! ... hahahahah uhm.. ok.. that farewell.. ur ass better not mean it!! *loud grunt*!!!!! hahahahhahhah because!!!!! thats like.. like.. like... losing my kid! i dun wanna lose me kid! who wants to lose their kid?! GEEEEBEEEZ! definitely NOT ME!

because that would suck...

and no no.. GO ANTEATERS! ZOT ZOT!! *wink **ahem dawddah*

ooooookaaay

2004-09-17T02:01:00.000-07:00

so muddah. first of alllllll, yenno when u said your blog wasnt working and it wouldnt publish? yeahhh, it published three times! hahahhhhah! u crack me uuuuup! but i deleted the other two k? k! and this was what i was going to say in my other post... like the jist of it:

to: "czareine" and "diana"
this would be my final farewell to you guys...
(something something something)
you guys don't like me anymore
(somethin somethinnnnnn)
i'll leave u guys be from now on...
(something something)
enjoy college and the rest of ur lives...
(something something something something)
i'll see u both at my graduation hopefully

seeee. no biggie right?
mmkay bye now. u guys mite kill me.
or maybe not. u both are niiiice niiiice people
with great hearts and right consciences! ;)

go pandas! =D

WHAT?!?!

2004-09-17T01:51:00.000-07:00

were you going to post!! TELL ME!!! i promise i wont get maaaad.. remember.. we already established not to long ago that we duno how to get mad at each other! TELL ME!! IM it to me.. i promise me no get maddy... i'll keep it hush hush.. dl dl. PROMISE!!! :-D MMMMMMMUAH!

red is for seniors...

2004-09-17T01:49:00.000-07:00

hahahahahahhhhahahahh
yeah ok. this isn't "czareine" again...

... and so i was going to blog something again. actually, i was blogging at the SAME TIME my muddah was blogging (i so didnt know she was posting something), but she finished before me and after i read her post, i felt bad about what i was going to write. sooooooooooooooo... nevermind.

and then after she said this...
muddah(1:13:10 AM): we're a good set of muddah and dawddah

yeahhhh... nevermind

i laaaaaaav you muddah!
muddah & dawddah forever till forever time infinite!

ok i need to look for a senior quote. piece of shiet. how about you pick one for me, yeah muddah? muddah always knows best. for totally! ok no mas. nitey nite nite nitey!

but i dont

2004-09-17T01:41:00.000-07:00

.. love surprises that is.. JUST KIDDING DAWDDAH!!! hahah

well sooooo!! that's my dawddah over there in the left column whoring my chatterbox.. oh how i love her so! hahah

YES DAWDDAH! you can whore the chatterbox ne time!!! i laaaav the millions of messages that you leave me.. :-D <- makes me smile like that hahahha.. see i write in green for you! weeee!!!.. so dawddah.. we have discussed what's going on tomoro.. and yea u are SOO DANCING!! WEEEE!! haha yeaaaboy!!! (oh about the grey pandas.. nope.. i never promised them.. u and iwmop have selective memories and had decided that i had promised you grey pandas.. but i love you soooo) .... i am soo not t.c.t.t.t.m.d (t.c.t.t.t. my dawddah).. and i am sure that the "guess who" person is not t.c.t.t.t.y (t.c.t.t.t you).. uh hello.. she was only online talking to you while i was talking to both of you helping try to get you to dance.. hahha WEE! dawddah.. i laav you soo. i am never not gonna wana talk to you ever!! OH MY GOD! that would like be losing my dawddah! double-u tee eff! that would be not cool! HOH MAN! thinking about that just hurts my heart oh so much my child!.. alrite.. barney flashback?! hahha i am actually part of the few that did not hate the purple creature.. i dint like him.. but i dint hate him.. i dint hate him so much that i had a blanket.. and i was like wat... 7! hahhaahahahaha ONE BIG HAPPY FAMILY.. nice to know that you are acknowledging your new daddeh.. hahha it warms my heart so much thats its melting.. ahaha and what was with the breaking out in the alma mater? hhahah OH YEA!! awwww *raising hands*

aww.. to the rest of the world.. my dawddah is all grown up... she's already choosing a senior quote.. and awaiting her senior proof photos.. soon she'll be 18.. then she'll be graduating OH MY GOD! I'M AN OLD MUDDAH!!! how time fliiiiiies.... *sigh*

DCo! well sooooooo.. sorry that i cannot make those two rush events.. BUT!!!!! the others.. it's bookmarked in my phone and in my computer.. hahhahah hello. u got me at food quite a while back.. hahhaah askdfhaksjdfhkasjdfhkasjdfhaskdf alrite soooo.. see ya then!! WEE! oh yea! take a road trip to UCI!! visit Kay and me! FUN FUN FUN!!!! hahaahha

dizzam. summer is officially over once the UC's and the rest of the Cal States move to their respective schools and start classes. whoa.. summer's been fun!! BEST I'VE EVER HAD!! :-D thanks to everyone who had contributed to the bestest summer ever..

ok so ... spent part of my day with Ultimatest Date.. AND!!! we are going back to the CONNECTION and COMMITMENT DIET!!! hhahaha for all those of you who do not know or remember what i am referring to.. this was still in the days of xangaing while in high school.. see.. we had started to go on this diet.. we dint starve ourselves or ne thing.. we just cut down on bad foods... and we were doing so well. but then i let ultimatest eat a cookie once.. and it was over for her.. and then wen she went off the diet. i went off too.. see the original purpose of the diet was to slim down for rhea's debut.. then my debut... and now were gonna look super duper fit for shell's debut! YEAAABOY!!! CONNECTION AND FREAKING COMMITMENT ULTIMATEST!! we do have to stick to it.. i think it'll be alot healthier for us.. OH I LAAV YOU SOOO!!!!

alrite.. there's alotta stuff going on rite now.. and it's really stressful i kno.. but if theres ne thing we can learn it's not to assume things.. because we cant get into the minds of others and just know what they are thinking and feeling.. and assuming only puts ur ass in a difficult position.. making one blow things more outta proportion than they really are.. but we shall all get thru this.. we shall overcome.. we shall overcome.. we shall overcome.. we shall overcome (<-.. haha thats a church song.. whenever its a part of the mass i duno the words and just sing those words hahhhahaha).. WEEE!

alrite.. i think that i am done.. later days you beautiful people!! MMMUAH!!!

i love surprises --

2004-09-16T19:01:00.000-07:00

dearest MUDDAH

this is your dawddah speaking. i regret to inform you that because your chatterbox sucks like no other, it has led me to act upon some drastic measures. ie: hacking into your blog. lucky for me, i remembered ur username. i know your password. but your usernames are quite the tricky ones. well anyway, i am talking to you right now and i told you not to look at your chatterbox because i still had to post one more thing. but of course, right when i'm about to finish, it just doesnt work. how much does that suck? ...like a LOT! ok so what even sucks MORE is that u just signed off on me. sorry it took me awhile to read what u sent... but hmmmm, talk time would be nice? oh but yeah, the reason why i hacked into your blog is to post up my last post on ur chatterbox. here goes:

dawddaaaaaah (nuevo):
laaadeeedaaadeedaaaa. i love you, u love me, we're a happy familyyy! (plus my new daddeh! :]) with a great big hug! n a kiss from me to u! wont u say u love me too! k bye bye for now! peee-esss: CALL ME!

okkkk!
MISSION COMPLETE!
i shall talk to you laaaytaaaaah!
i laaav u muddah dearest! :)

...for the glory of the bluuuue and whiiiiiite! hail our alma mater, haiiiiillllll!

random, i know ;]

WHOA!.. (not really)

2004-09-15T17:54:00.000-07:00

haha... So here I am updating again. And it hasn't been over a month! WOO HOO!

I'm just here at home, in front of the computer screen, waiting for my Ultimatest Date to come over because we're going to get some COFFEE BEAN!! WEEEE!!! I haven't had that in a while. WOOT!

Ok... So today, I went to Target with Mama to go college shopping. We got the main, main stuff, and my first week at UCI I've got to see what else I need. And when I go back home, my mother, sister and I are going to go to shopping again! hahah I'm totally liking my colors: different shades of pink, tan & beige, and green! WOO!! hahaha I'm such a dork.

So there has been a lot of drama going around lately, in and out of the house. I just pray that by the end of the year, the internal affairs are settled. Times are hard, but we'll all get through them.

So I'm tired of feeling like a second string friend, but I honestly, really can't do anything about it. I've tried. But this is one of those things where you've got to be met half way. Ya kno? I'm glad that my Ultimatest Date and Dawddah get it. Where would I be without them?

So i tried calling BFFM yesterday because my mom had found this old video of her baby shower for me. I AM SO SORRY! I was apologizing to my mom for putting her in discomfort. HOH MAN! SHE WAS HUGE!! But yea... everyone was so funny and cute when they were little. Janice Datu was ADORABLE! She's only a few months older than me. BFFM, BFFA, and Rowen were still in the oven. When we were babies, my group was BFFM, Janice, and Rowen. haha BFFM and I go WAAAAY BACK! hahaha YEAAABOY!

I miss being a little kid. There were far less things to worry about. As we've gotten older, out concerns and worries have grown times a million; at least it seems that way. But alas, we need to grow up. We need to learn from the new experiences. We need to break away and develop our own lives apart from being able to run to Mommy or Daddy like when we were five. But then, we also can't forget the kid in us. In all the stresses that we go through, we cant forget to have fun. We really can't or else we'd be dead inside. I guess it's going to be a little tough: learning to balance the exterior "grown-up" 18 year-old with the scared, fun-loving little 5 year-old in me. *sigh*

Alright. I guess that is enough. For right now, I'll just be in the stressing mode. Of course, I'll be walking around like I have no worries, but those with whom I am really close know. Thank God for them. I have next summer to look forward to. Or at least I hope so. :X

oh my goodness!

2004-09-09T14:49:00.000-07:00

look at who is updating?!?!

MEE!!!! hahahhah

i think it were about time.. well.. this computer has been on the fritz. the most i've been able to do it chat and email.. and even then i have some difficulties.. HOH i can't wait to get my laptop! woot!!! hahah

so like.. i'm here at home.. totally bored outta my mind.. there were things that i kept saying that i'd blog about.. but i never did.. lets see

1. SPOP 2: Cielo Sockpuppets: yea well.. that was toootally awesome.. like a mini kairos experience minus all the talk about God and Spirituality.. hahah but it was tootally kick ass! and i cannot WAIT to see my buddies at the Welcome Week Reunion!!! WEEE!!!

2. The Philippines: HOH MAN!.. that totally rocked my socks as well.. i totaally miss my buddies out there!! *sigh* i can't wait to go back there again. oh my niece is so cute.. even to this day.. i stay up until 5am sometimes just to txt/chat with her... i can't WAIT until she comes here in the fall.. and one of the best experiences/memories there were: the baklas.. hahah HOH MAN! TOTALLY HIGHLARIOUS!!!! :-D and theres lotsa other stuff that happend.. but thats just waay too long.. but lemme tell ya.. i totally depise the ppl who are "taking care" of the house.. pshh! yea right!! rawr!!

3. other notes: well.. this summer has been sooo kick ass!! NO JOKE!! like it started off soo bad.. and then.. get better with the debut.. and just got greater as time passed... i wish this summer never has to end.. but alas.. it must.. and it's fast approaching! HOH MAN!

4. UCI: so not too long ago.. i found out where i'm living at UCI.. i'm gonna be living in Sierra in Mesa Court.. time to bring back that Immac Tradition! YAY!! i am SOOO GLAD that Kay is my roomy.. where would i be without her! hahah we are a good set we are.. hahah we've got it aaaalll planned out.. and sure plans changed.. but we've got a set of goals.. and were are STICKIN TO THEM!! hahah YAY!!! i can't wait actually! it's all exciting!!!

theres more.. but ima blog about that later.. hahah nice to hear from me aint it!! hahaha jk jk

MMUAH!!

later days

<3, czareine :-D

+3:40pm
so let's see.. where was i?! hmm.. oh yea. i remember.

5. the renovations: well this house i getting renovated.. i can't say that i'm too satisfied.. i mean.. it's nicer than it used to be in some aspects.. but i duno.. alot of it just doesnt make sense.. too much of it doesnt.. well.. we'll just have to see what happens within the next year.. plans are being made.. YAY!

6. the livestrong debut posse: oh man.. do i miss you guys! i really do! well.. when the house is done.. we're having a gathering here for my dadda's bday and you're all invited!!! there'll be our debut staple foods: cheeken (hehe), palabok, and turon! WEE! and hopefully seviche.. cuz that stuff is good.. oh yea.. i'm eating shrimp agen.. i have a scar already. mite as well go balls out..

7. "GO BALLS OUT!": alrite.. i am totally proud of IWMOP DREW!! haha and i heard that this piece of advice is spreading! hahah GOOD DEAL!!!

8. TO THE BFFs: we're totally i need of a BFF day!!!!!!! BFF Tee-Tee, BFFM, BFFA, BFF IWMOP DREW!! i totally miss you guys.. well maybe not so much Drew cuz i see him every other day.. but i lav you just as much drew!! heheh

9. my ultimatest left me!: yes.. that's rite.. she started her college journey already. i'm proud of your dedication to school my dear.. 3.6 HERE MY ULTIMATEST COMES!!

10. my dawddah is one busy cookie: i totally miss seeing my dawddah everyday and the constant texting during class.. my dawddah is a busy senior she is.. i'm here for ya all the way my dear! don't forget the letter to daddeh!!

11. just for ms. diana olympia: i'm gonna rush for ADK... alpha delta kappa.. it sounds FUN!!! haha FOOOOOD!!!! she got me with the mention of good food and pagbaon/take-home.. dude! diana maybe you should get brownie points for recruiting.. heheh!

12. in light of recent events: i've found that my temper cam be quite scary.. OH WELL! hahahh

13. my weight keeps fluctuating!: i need to start working out!! alrite.. pre-debut.. i was a lil heavy.. then debut came and i was an ideal thin for me.. then post-debut.. i got heavy again.. then will power made me lose that same weight.. then the philippines came.. and i gained about 7 pounds... then post-philippines i managed to lose some of that weight.. i am now at 103.. and it dun like it. yea sure.. you may say that's small. but it doesn't look to great on me.. bleckh

14. but to good news is: I'VE GROWN HALF AN INCH SINCE AUGUST 2003!! yay!!!!

15. driving: i'm warming up to it.. i've been taking lil test drives with IWMOPs tacoma, Ultimatest's prius (with the most sensitive brakes ever!), and her tank the suburban.. i'm getting the hang of things.. they are GOOD TEACHERS!!! :-D

alrite.. that's 15 things.. i think ima stop here and save some for later! hahaah

muah muah!! and later days

<3, Czareine :Þ

dawddah, here's your...

2004-07-26T20:51:00.000-07:00

UPDATE! and this is gonna be a long, long, LOOOOOONG one!! hahah

haha my dawddah.. shes a funny one she is... i think she rules my life.. she could say, "muddah, go jump off a 25 story building for me..." and knowing how she rules my life so.. i'd say no.. but then she'd give a face.. then i'd attempt to.. then she'd stop me and it'd be too late for my pants cuz ida already pissed in 'em for knowledge of death from jumpin off that building.. i tell ya.. funny one she is.. hahaha

so0o0 ne way.. i've been doin a whole buncha things lately! its crazy!!!!

last week, on thursday i went to UCI all early to take my placement exams.. i spent most of my day there.. that was good stuff! haha spent the day with Edgar and my new buddy Amy! weee! hahah passed my chem exam.. YEAYAH!

last week, on friday i did a WHOLE LOTTA NOTHING! hahah but that was fun.. later that nite i had a four way conversation with debut court.. i tell ya.. some ppl are just so sprung! its cute!

last week, on saturday my day was fun times! it was BFFA's bday celebration! weee! haha b4 the partay.. a few of the court ppl and i went to go hooka.. that was quite fun! my ultimatest's driving is just the damn best! hahahah weeee!!! then we head on over to my BFFA's partaaay! and that was fun! we played games.. the court bonded summore.. that was niiiice.. hahah riza had the bestestestestsetkajethaksdjfh pictures ever! then we trampoline and play guesstures.. and then like dont leave covina until like 2 in the morning... lil seester, vin, ultimatest, dawddah slept over! but thats of course i buy us food and vin eats it all! haah tried to watch kill bill vol.1 but we all ended up fallin asleep!....

last sunday was another fun fun day! hahah well we woke up ALL late for me to go to choir practice... :X i feel bad.. havent been to choir in the LONGEST time! but we all get ready for church and that was the funnest church experience ive ever had!!! hahah OH MAN! my dawddah, ultimatest, and sissy just make me laff sooo hardcore! there was this lil girl in church that just kept ripping our pages from ne book she could find.. it was HIGHlarious! then we head on back home. dawddah, czelly and i just chill out at home while ultimatest got cleaned up... well we nap until ultimatest comes back for us... then we go to debut practice.. which was quite fun! hahah our intstructor is soooo gay! really! he is! i tell ya.. filipino gay men are really flamboyant! hahah then we bring dawddah home.. then ultimatest and i head on over to universal city walk for best friend kate's bday! weee! we got her a gift.. then we ate buca di beppo's! wee! it was sooo good!!!! man! everyone thought the ultimatest and were like drugged out cuz we kept laffing and very loudly (as usual) might i add! hahahaha that was the best... it was such a nice little im.mac reunion! *sigh* it took us all QUITE a while to depart... then ultimatest and i made a stop to ralphs.. that was good stuff huh? ;-P

this past monday i did nothing.. i was supposed to.. it was the best day.. but nite time was soo much better! *sidenote: dang! how the hell am i still remembering all this?! ne hoo..* i laav the late night chats the the court and i always have! hahah nuff sed oh and im glad that my good buddy Jus had a good bday!

this past tuesday i did something.. i kno i did! but i really cant remember.. wowee! haha oh no! was is a nothing day?! hmph... all i can remember is muuuucho debut outting planning... thats all i can remember.. aww feel bad now.. ahahah oh no! it was a nothing day! it was! i remember! i did nothing aalllll day! hahahaha geebus! oh no.. i did do something.. hahah i went coffee beaning with ultimatest after her chaufferin the o'brians! that was nice... weeee!!! hahah oh and i made plans with bunny while he was in mexico.. hahah

this past wednesday was soo fun!!! i went beachin with dawddah and ultimatest which was just the best!! all ima say is that dawddah gets black not tan.. ultimatest's boobs are not so white... and i laaaav my tan! weee! got sunburned but ngeh.. oh well.. i figure wen the burnin goes bye bye the tan will KICK ASS! hahah then we get coffee bean and then we get KUSHIMBO.. then we take dawddah home.. then ultimatest takes me home.. shes so wonderful... yes she is! then at home..

this past thursday was another fun-filled day! IWMOP, dawddah and Tee-Teecame over and IWMOP and i practiced our songs... we need to have another SIVT! hahaha IWMOP, Tee-Tee, ultimatest, daddah, and i were supposed to go hooka.. but that dint happen.. hahah cuz we couldnt find that place! hahahahahah it was soo funny.. that was quite an adventure.. then we got so tired that we were like.. damn.. we're hungry.. lets go eat.. so we expose IWMOP and Tee-Tee to the wonder that is KUSHIMBO! i really really love that place meng.. REALLY! hahahahathen we take dawddah home and then we head back home.. and we watch my debut montage like three times in a row... it was makin us sad.. but happy all at the same time.. IWMOP and i sang "pieces of me" and "til i get over you" for ultimatest... its been decided that IWMOP and i are singing for ultimatest's wedding next month! hahahahah then ultimatest left us to go meet up with the queen posse because justin (no.. not the one whose bday just passed.. another one) was leaving for the PI the next day... ayah.. i wish i coulda chilled with him and the posse b4 he left.. then IWMOP and Tee-Tee decided to leave.. but not after we danced our dances out in front in my front yard at 10 at nite.. and not after my mom tried to convince them to just sleep over! ahahah they finally leave at like midnight or sumthing.. that was funny.. not that's filipino time.. hahah then i go online. and pack for the weekend

on friday i woke up all early to head over to UCI to take my last placement exam.. I PASSED! wee! thank goodness.. i wasnt about to take precal agen.. time to move on to CALCULUS! hahhathen after that.. we do some financial aid stuff.. mom and i that is.. then we head on back home.. i totally slept in the car.. she ran some errands and i dint even kno it! i wake up.. and we're home.. it was funny.. then we get ready a bit... ultimatest comes over so we get coffee bean b4 i leave cuz i wasnt gonna see her for a WHOLE day! ayah! haha oh man... wat are we gona do w/out each other wen we go to college.. or wen i go UCI that is.. at least shes still nearby ya kno? then as soon as we get back.. mommy and i leave for UCI to go thru SPOP 2.. and oh man.. that was soo wonderful.. but i'll make that another post.. cuz i mean.. the SPOP entry.. its gona be another long one... this was long enough as it is.. hahah so hope you all enjoyed! and kudos to those who read all of this.. hahahah WEE!!

laters!

dawddah sed to...

2004-07-17T03:16:00.000-07:00

UPDATE!

but i'm kinda too lazy rite now.. haha i was really intending too.. but this amazing stream of force took over me... hahah so thats the update ur getting, dawddah.. u'll get more latah!! sry... hahahah

I MISS MY COURT!!!!

2004-07-14T20:39:00.000-07:00

to my court and everyone else i have something to say to: go to my xanga for that.. this one is soo long!!

ok.. so A LOT has happend since the last time i blogged.. omg.. lemme tell ya.. this will be a long, long, LONG entry.. so maybe this is one to read when you are bored.. czelly, to save you some time.. i'll bold ur name when ever i mention you. since that it wat u so requested (demanded) the last time i had a long entry.. hahah

thursday: bff's came over early....that was nice!! i laav them! I GOT MY BRACES OFF!!!!! weeeee!! hahah it was weird... i dint know how to smile!! well we had the second to last practice.. we only practiced twice.. it really was mostly play time.. haha we did line dancing most of the nite.. there was a lil bit of last minute bonding with everyone.. well not everyone.. but a few of the people... i heard about a bit of a blow out when the gals were in ultimatest's car... that was the beginning of the end.. hahahah

friday: now THAT WAS a busy day.. i wake up.. i do some last minute stuff.. i was freaking out because i had no voice fly rye came over for some boob shopping.. so we leave.. go to my orthodontist to get my braces.... but they werent ready even tho they sed they would.. i waited for an hour.. that really irked me.. then we went to the gal for some boob/bra shopping since my good one went all M.I.A a few days b4 the debut... hahah then we get that, then get jamba juice, which was soo yummy. then we go try to get our nails done.. czelly and i, that is.. but that dint work because the wait was sooo long!! ayah! but that was ok.. so we head on home and we pick up wat we can.. tuxes.. dresses. etc... then we head on over to the hotel for the last practice.. it wasnt as much playtime... tita johannes wasnt there so i became the "debut nazi dictator" agen.. hahah we practiced alot more than we usually do.. i mean A LOT.. hahah daddy and i practiced our song.. there was fun times with the cards... (cha: the cards never lie rite?!) hahaha.. sooo that was fun.. then after the practice.. we had more line dancing.. oh man.. my flower girl, cheater, escort RJ and his new move! THE FUNNIEST! hahhahaha that is forever embedded in my brain!! hahah then after we head on up to hotel room where we cut RJ's hair.. that was funnay.. then after that.. ppl and i did sutff for the debut.. CD's, butterflies, flowers... guru, albert, and carla came to help out.. thanks.. i dint really think guru would come to help.. hahah .. then as we are finishing up we gossip.. and thats wen EVERYTHING comes out!! i mean everything! that was insane.. we spent the equivalent of a school day talking about the same thing! JEEZ! hahah that was such a great bonding experience! we dint sleep until like 5 or 6! where in other debuts.. u wanna get as much rest as possible. we dint. hahahah that was hilarious! my lil brudder and seester kept doing bad stuff in 665 hahaha! jk kids! jk! remember my theory tho.. remember.. man o man.. nite to rememeber.. and mind u this isnt the debut yet..

saturday: ok so its debut day.. wake up first to get my hair done.. then all then the girls take turns.. that was fun.. we suffer for beauty.. ultimatest has evolved into a skanksta honorary hahah with the twisties!! hahahah so then we all get ready little by little.. found out that pahddah new he was pahddah... riza.. ur the bestest! i cant say that enuff.. we all get a gift from escort: LIVESTRONG!!!! uhm uhm.. we transfer downstairs.. and finish getting ready there.. we're just all over the place.. finally finish getting ready.. do one final practice.. take our pictures with two photographers.. that was exciting! hahah then little by little time came for us to start.. then we started.. grand entrance was good.. daddy and i sang well, i laaved his mini speech, my cousins lil performance was cute!! i laaved it! i dint even eat i was so into it hahah then the montage.. which kicked ass! hahah omg.. everyone loved it! haha the f.r.i.e.n.d.s. thing we did in the fountain came out so well! no joke!! then sergeant reeka sang which was beautiful!! not a flat note which was the big worry.. beautiful tell ya.. then my lil cousin and her group danced agen.. this time the dances were a lil.. whoa whoa whoa there.. at least thats wat everyone was saying as they danced! hahah it was soo cute! cutest ever! then the wondeful candles where dawddah shocked the world with her lack of explanation for me givin birth to her hahahaha.. that was hilarious.. i could not stop laffing.. she even told me in her speech to stop laffing.. and then.. BFFA freaking making me almost cry! hahah that was wonderful... cake was good!! then the roses.. Big Bro is gonna taking meto spearmint rhino hahah.. i got kuya niño's name wrong.. agen..pleasure dancing with my IWMOP.. TEE-TEE! omg!! u are the bestestest sexay boy dancer ever!! that was soo great! i had fun! justin, that was a nice little talk we had.. sry ur song was wrong.. heheheh but i guess it can apply, also... *wink* jk.. escort.. hahah that was the longest dance ever! hahhaha too bad we dint know all the words! it was a pleasure dancing with you as well my dear! then theparents danced.. and then it was time for us.. omg.. i am soo proud of us!!! NO MISTAKES!!! WOWEEE!! that was great.. haha all the practices, tita's patience, my dictatorship, the play time.. it all paid off.. weee! hahah then i sed my thank yous.. and then i was time for dancing.. i socialized a bit.. then danced a bit.. i had fun.. but boy was i tired! im sure everyone was! hahaha then that one line dance thingy that we'd been doind came on.. that was a big WEE YAY! it was so fun seeing me new debut pardnah chuck dance and battle my lil cousin and her group hahhaha and ultimatest did one last one handed cartwheel. that was great! hahaha then we headed on up alrite..

this deserves a new paragraph.. so we just chill out a lil bit in the suite after transferring from 660 & 665. juice left.. then i went and opened gifts.. then rj came back with guru and bunny oh man!! best game of 10 fingers and best hot seat ever!!!!! seriously... i was the first out.. damn.. haha but it was hilarious wen escort has one finger left.. guess which one was up last? hahh.. but yea his hot seat.. awesome!! forever embedded in my brain: "fucking sophomores, SHUT THE FUCK UP", lil seester slappin escort, and yea... then at around 5, guru, escort, and bunny leave.. this time there was more sleep to spare.. always a nice thing..

sunday: well it took us all a while to pack up and get ready to go.. man.. it took forever for the bell hop to come.. so we ended up just carrying everything ourselves.. hahah then we head on home.. and we eat.. and we sleep.. and ppl leave..then we all sleep summore..

monday: so i finally have the energy to wake up.. and it was a good day.. it felt good.. spent the day with my family that was nice.. it really was... heheheh.. then we do some gifting and i sleep early.... weee!!

tuesday (yesterday): i wake up early.. and lolo and i bring czelly to school.. a lady at the DMV bitches at me.. everyone in the house freaks out about my passport.. but i find that its coming on thursday (tomoro)... then i have time until i go out on a date with ultimatest so i put on make-up.. i watch tv.. take a nap.. other good stuff.. then i finally go out with my ultimatest that was lovely.. i met honore's youngest sister shes's really nice! :D... then we go eat sushi.. it was good and cheap! weee! then we go watch The Notebook omg.. i swear. the whole theater was crying! it was soo good!! i soo wanna see it agen!! i really do.. *sigh* hhahaha then we go to sav-on to get some personal hygiene stuff.. then i finally head home.. kuya rodell and his family come over.. and we get another computer.. auntie son's this time.. hahah its loveleh!! heheheh then of course.. because i have a computer and can go online.. i dont sleep.. have a good talk with debut pardnah, ultimatest, drew, guru, and my lil brudder and seester, and future in-law then i finally sleep..

today.. had more good conversations with ultimatest, debut pardnah, guru, escort, and IWMOP oh man.. i laav you guys!!!!

my messages to ppl will be on the xanga.. this one is long enuff already... whew! that was a long one!! ayah! good job to all u patient/bored ones.. weee!!

OOO MY GOOOOOOOOD!!!

2004-07-14T02:15:00.000-07:00

i had the longest most beautifullest post! and it dint go thru!!! bull-crap-caca!!! i just must do it agen some other time.. id been posting for an hour and a half.. im not in the mood to do it agen! GEEEEEEZ!

sry to all u who wanted that update.. sry.. stupid computer!

the cat is..

2004-07-07T23:48:00.000-07:00

OUTTA THE BAG!!! hahahah

well let's start off with... I'm 18!! hahah... well doesn't feel like it really.. but i'm sure it will soon... din't have too much of a bday. but hey.. im having a debut!! hahah i would like to say thank you too all who greeted me.. and a special thank you to best friend kate, guru, ultimatest, dawddah, BFFM, and IWMOP drew for making my birthday so much better than it could have been.. you guys are the bestestsetstsetsetsetsmsadfasjdgfasdhfa!

so that's it for my birthday... last nite.. had four wonderful talks with guru, ultimatest, BFFM and dawddah and you guys are just wonderful.. hahah made my nite! really did...

·BFFM i laav you! hahaha u are tooo funnay.. no worries... paki introduce ke keka ne...
·ultimatest.. thank you mucho for ur advice!! u are just sooo weeeeeeee!! i duno... imagine me sayin that, ultimatest.. hahhaha im keeping what u sed to heart... but i think ima have to figure it out, see for myself, and roll with the punches.. its one thing for you to tell me, but its another for me to experience it and learn from any mistakes or non-mistakes i mite make.. but i kno u are there for me always.. thank you so much! i laav you! hahah
·dawddah.. thank for making me so many messages to smile everywhere i look! hahhah i laav it! hahha we dint talk too much last nite.. but it had substance.. u like my plan? yea well.. forget that. haha u know y.. akdjfhkashfddsakj rawr!
·guru.... hehehehhehehehe thank you for not being an ass about everything.. hahah we got each others back rite?!?! so yes... we've established that i cannot predict the future.. so i'll try to hold back on all the negativity that i was bringing out last nite.. we'll just have to see what happens rite?!.. rite.. thanks for everything!!! and u should be glad to know that i have stopped shaking :Þ

this past week ive had really good talks with lots of ppl.. i caught up with kate who called me for my bday.. weee!! glad ur having fun summer. or no.. "interesting" as u so like to put it.. im glad that u are happy... reeka and fly rye were being awesome pals the morning of my bday.. u laav u two... haha i even had a good talk with my mama today in the car as we were running debut errands.. hehehehe my mama's a funny character..

ngeh.. so life really isnt as bad as i like to make it.. i think im just a "drama queen" hahhaha it could be that or my evil little friend that likes to pop up on me about every three to four months.. im just a little on edge and jumpy.... but whats new? hahaha

well im getting lazy. and this computer is broken.. its being really weird and pissing every who uses it off.. haha... so i think i shall just have to go...

later! :Þ

WOWZAHS!!

2004-07-01T13:01:00.000-07:00

ok ow!! i just hit my already retarded knee against this desk! OMG OMG OMG!

..........

alrite.. i'll get over it.. ill just wrap it up later or sumthing...

Well, anyhoo... I think I'm going to update this blog a little bit before I move on to the tedious tasks of folding the last load of laundr and cleaning my room. So what's been going on you ask? A LOT! TOO MUCH! So, I'm quite stressed about this debut of mine that is coming up in like.. oh.. 9 DAYS! I cannot believe that it's almost here! I'm SOOOO NOT READY YET!!! Well, maybe I am, but the paranoid side of me is saying that I'm not. HAHAHA but with the reassurance of my late night online buds, I'm feeling a little better about it. So that's good. Practices are getting better. We have yet to be complete. HAH! I get the feeling that we're not going to be complete until the actual day of the cotillion. HAHAHA that's ok. I have faith in my court. We're good enough.

SO! There is a sleep-ovah here tomorrow night with Dawddah, IWMOP, BFFA, Tee-Tee, and possiblly Ultimatest! hahaha Man, oh man, oh man... That's definitely something to look forward to.

AYAH! I might be able to go out tonight. You see, my mom's working. And before she left, I said, "MA! Since you are working, can I go out?" Then she said, "With who?" Then I said, "With Jena and possible Claudius. You don't know him yet." Then as she was walking out of the room, she gave me a face. Then I said, "All right, Ma. I'm going to go out ok?! THANKS!" hahahah so I just have to call her and make sure, then she'll make me call my dad, and I'm sure my dad will be ok with it. Hopefully? hahahah

Well, my sister and lolo just got home. I'm gonna go get my grub on, finish the laundry, and get back to my room...

OOH ANOTHER BUSY DAY! :-D

LATER.. MMMMMMMMMMUAH!

she never blogs so i'm doing it for her...

2004-06-27T16:44:00.000-07:00

this isnt "czareine"... its "melannie". yah, i'm her dawddah ;] anyhow... i'm at her house right now and we're just waiting for everyone to re-take their showers because we're all dirty. its kind of naaaasteh. so who are we waiting for? uhm... rj and dj and riza and jena (her name is in green because she likes that color. haha) and alyssa and elvin... i think thats it. thats quite a lot...

so about "czareine's" life...

dawddah: so muddah... how's life?
muddah: *eating chicken* well...
dawddah: ok
muddah: oh... and depressing
dawddah: what else did you say?
muddah: loveless, hopeless, depressing
dawddah: you already said depressing
muddah: everything uncool
dawddah: i dont like your answers anymore
muddah: oh, but i love my friends

ok so yah... my little "interview" with her... she's a busy one i tell ya. always doin stuff for her deh-butt. hmmmmmm... 2 weeks from hier. cool cool beans. i hope we dont have to dance in heels today. that'll kill me... us...

i have no idea what else to write... hopefully she'll update herself... i say everyone just tells her to and she'll HAVE to eventually because she'll feel bad. ok no mas.

MUDDAAAAAH! UPDATE ALREADY!
ok thank you! you're the bestest!
you are my sunshiiiiine ;)
hahahahahahahhahahahhhahahahhhahah
that is TOO corny!

DEBUT COUNTDOWN...

2004-06-21T21:23:00.000-07:00

Well, the last person has just left my home after quite a tiring practice - for me at least. Our choreographer wasn't here, so I had to run practice. hahah I think I'm a dictator. Anyway... we fixed many of the boo-boos that we've been having oh.. I'd say.. since we learned the dance! hahahah... but it's coming along. I'm satisfied. There's still more cleaning to do, and A LOT of other stuff to do... MAN OH MAN! I'm getting quite lazy so... for Dawddah....

MY DEBUT IN: 19 days...

HAPPY PAHDDAH'S DAY!!!!

2004-06-20T09:54:00.000-07:00

to all you pahddah's out there!!!

I LAV...

2004-06-20T01:49:00.000-07:00

DAWDDAH and ROOMY!! u two are the bestestestest!!

dawddah..lifesaver...

roomy.. best roomy ever and i dont even live with you [yet.. i hope]!....

THANK YOU GUYS! MMUAH!

time outta the house...

2004-06-19T21:58:00.000-07:00

So I thought today was going to be another day in the Madlangbayan, and for the most part it was. However, today was a special day because FLY rye came from Carson to kidnap me and my sister! So this morning, I finished all the guestlist stuff I was supposed to finish for my MOM and SENsei. Thank goodness that that is over. I had a couple more invitations mailed.. ayah! Then, the mailman was the bearer of bad news. My contract for on-campus housing was sent back, but the semi-good news is that Roomy is in the same boat as I am. ANYONE WANNA LIVE WITH US!? hahah a third roomy would be nice. Sad thing is that my parents are totally unhappy. TOTALLY UNHAPPY!! ngeh.. What can they do? I fucked up. That's just one more thing for me to deal with. AYAH! Well.. FLY rye saved my sister and me, and we went to watch a movie. I finally saw Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban. It was so good! I LAAAV IT! Then we came home and atsi and I tore up 3 crabs and mm mm were they good! But seeing how I am allergic to shellfish, MY LIPS ARE SOOOO ITCHY! That's ok.... I've already been anticipating that =X... We were watching Tarzan on the Disney channel, and boy I tell ya! MY SISTER IS ONE FUNNAY GAL! nuff said.. that's for Atsi, Czel and I to laugh about. Atsi left. My parents yelled at me. OH NOTHING LIKES TO GO MY WAY DOES IT? I admit some of it is my fault, a good portion of all the badness isn't my fault either.. I just can't win can I.. I'm gonna stop here..

o!!

SPECIAL THANKS TO ULTIMATEST and BUNNY for last night!! THANKS YOU GUYS!

trying to get my mind off things...

2004-06-18T22:22:00.000-07:00

so im stealing this survey from my ultimatest:

PAST
1. When were you born: 7.6.1986
2. Where were you born: Los Angeles
3. What was your first grade teacher's name: Ms. Lacson & Mrs. Posadas
4. What was your first pet's name: Maxie
5. What was your worst accident (medical): the accident with the blue line train when I was five
6. What was your favorite cartoon: The Smurfs, The Snorkles, Captain Planet
7. Who was your first best friend: Marissa
8. When was the first time you ever went on a plane: about a month after I turned one
9. Who was your first girlfriend/boyfriend: hahah Justin Tiglao... I refused to play with any of the other kids with out my "boyfriend"
11. What was your favorite movie in the 2nd grade: I'm pretty sure it was some Disney movie
13. What used to be your favorite color: PINK
14. What was your favorite subject: math, science, and music
15. Did you ever wet your pants at school: once... in kindergarten
16. Did you ever get sent to the principal?: yea.. LOL.. because I would cry everyday to go home.. but that never worked.. but the principal always gave me food! that and when I was one student council I was always ditching class and running errands for the principal..
17. Did you ever start a food fight: no.. I always hated to get dirty.. it would be impossible for me to have
18. What was your worst fear: after the accident.. losing my mom
19. What was your favorite toy: my cabbage patch kid
20. Did you ever suck your thumb: no.. but I did drink a bottle until I was 6

PRESENT
21. What time is it: 10.34 pm
22. What's the date: 6.18.2004
23. What grade are you in: soon to be a freshman at UCI
25. What is your favorite movie: omg.. there are too many.. but for right now.. both volumes of Kill Bill
26. What is your favorite song: there are just way too many.. haha but I'm sure my sergeants can guess.. they are always teasing me about it... think practice
27. Do you have any pets: two dogs
28. If so what are their name: Czy and Kobe
29. What is your favorite subject in school: being the nerd that I am.. although my classes were hard.. I liked them all.. and I'm sinning against Dissection Buddy but it was Anatomy and Physiology...
30. What color hair do you have: dark brown.. my highlights are finally growing out! woo hoo!
31. What kind of music do you listen to: anything and everything.. honest to God
32. Do you still watch cartoons: all the time with my nieces!
33. What is your favorite TV show: hmm that's a toughy..
34. Do you get online often? usually all day.. even if I'm just on AIM and on away message
35. What's your worst fear: not having my closest friends to keep me sane
36. What's your favorite color: PINK
37. What state/province do you live in: good ol' California
38. What's your favorite type of food: everything I can't have... seafood.. dairy.. etc..

FUTURE
41. What do you want to be when you grow up: an aerospace engineer
42. Do you want to go to college: yes
43. Do you want to get married: yes.. that's dawddah's pahddah's job!! hahahah jk.. but I really do
44. If so at what age... if not why: right outta college and grad school.. about 25
45. Do you want to have kids: YES! I WANT LOTS! WHO'S UP FOR THE CHALLENGE?! I'm bearing them all anyway.. LOL
46. What kind of car do you want: I really don't know.. I kinda don't like the idea of having to drive already.. yes I'm a freak..
47. At what age do you think you'll live to: just long enough to see my greatgrandkids
48. Where do you want to live when you're 35: I have nooo idea! just somewhere sunny
49. What movie do you want to see next Saturday night: I really don't care.. I just need to update my movie status!.. ULTIMATEST! LET'S GO ON ANOTHER DATE! like we used to! hahah I wonder if CLAUDIUS will read this huh Ultimatest..
50. What time do you think you will go to bed: whenever I get sleepy.. sometime around 2
51. Do you think you will have the same friends as you do now: the really good ones.. yes.. but some.. I really don't think so. I'm such a cynic sometimes..
52. Do you think everyone will be jealous of you at your 10th high school reunion: AHAHAHA!! I DOUBT IT!
53.Do you want to be president of the U.S.: ew.. Lord, NO
54. Do you want to walk on the moon: Nah.. I just wanna make the ships that go there
55. Do you want to be famous: yes
56. What kind of house do you want to live in: a little bit bigger than what i have to accomodate for my family.. with a pool.. nice big back yard. pretty fenced front yard.. with a big garage for my mayn cars.. with several stories.. two kitchens... a bathroom for everyone in the house.. with a fun gameroom/bar.. and an entertainment room... all the fixins!

that was a good survey, Ultimatest!.. thanks!

i'm in..

2004-06-18T14:07:00.000-07:00

prison.. i wanna go out!! im stuck at home! makes me wish i drove.. but then i think to myself.. even if i drove. lolo and my mama wouldnt let me go out.. geez-louise... ok.. that is all.. just thought i'd share..

a not so new world

2004-06-18T00:41:00.000-07:00

soo.. ive decided to get a new blog.. y? because ive always preferred it.. i had one before.. that no one knew of.. and it really was easier for me to use.. then i got sucked into the world of xanga.. and i defected... now i have come back home to blogger.. i think i will still occasionally update my xanga.. and if i still often update that.. then its because i am not updating this one.. i don't know.. i guess we will just have to see how everthing works out..